Summer Review

Its been a very interesting summer to say the least. Not exciting per say, but very eye opening in the sense that I survived. My fist summer totally and completely alone.. and I lived. I'm not saying it was easy. It was a huge adjustment for me. This summer was just overall completely different from anything I've ever had to do. Its just that everything changed. Everything was just slightly different enough to throw me off course there for awhile. I got a promotion, which was amazing but also a lot of hard work. People really misunderstood my roll that I had there and it made communication difficult so it seems. However, as far as my job goes I was very please with how my summer went. Hightlights from work include:
- The treasure hunt (haha come on guys it wasn't that bad)
- Day Camp Idol
- Green Koolaid
- Kangaroo Kourt
- Hunting the mess fairy
- Solving the case of the misaimed pee
- Johnny hehe
- Wasting lots of time at salmoneir nature park
- Janie's party
- Dickie being such a good sport ( I love you kiddo)
- Cleaning poop haha
- Tent city and the sighting of the sasquatch
- Not being PJ! haha sorry buddy!

And those are just some of them. I really do honestly and truthfully love my job :)

So on the non-work related end of the summer things were a lil different. Yeah I admit it. I was unhappy. My only saviours were really my girls and rehersing for The Birdcage *coughplugcough*. Sunday nights were always amazing. There is nothing I would not do for my girls. You are honestly the best thing I have in my life, and sometimes my only reason I feel at the time to get up in the morning. You make life worth it. I know I've said it a hundred times, but it was so hard for me to come home and not hear someone say "I've missed you, did you have a nice day" and kiss me. Being loved is something I really miss. And i will never deny that. But I realized tonight when thinking about writing this blog that I'm going to be 20 in two months (from yesterday btw hehe) I need to stop my whining and bitching. Yes ok, I can't have who I want. That isn't the end of the world. I'm distracting myself so much with what I can't have that I'm probably missing a whole bunch of great things that I could have. And it really breaks my heart to admit I'm really ready to move on now. I feel guilty about it. I do. But this summer has made me realize that I'm worth it. And it was his loss (yes I know you're reading this and I am sober this time) So yes it kills me, and yes it still hurts every single day. But I don't need that. I'm missing too much. I'm going to move on. Slowly. I really don't want to rush anything. But 20 is when people start to calm down. Start seriously becoming who you are going to be for the rest of your life. I don't need that extra stress in my life. I don't need the uncertainty of it all. I don't need second guessing. I need stability. I'm not going to run from anything that scares me anymore. Thats what cowards do. Jimmy told me a long time ago to seize life with both hands, and picture myself as a cup and love as water. If you just pour the water around you're left with an empty cup. You have to fill the cup and let it over flow first. And it took me 4 years to get what he meant for real. But Jimmy this summer put into action what you tried to teach me on the rooftop that night. It takes a small person to make someone feel small. No matter what they do. So I survived my summer alone. And its time for me to get my life back in order. Back to school. Back to life. Back to everything thats normal. I'm already gone.

Peace and Blessings!

So here I am. Its 11:09 and I've just settled myself on my bed after getting home from my *LONG* Day of work (7am-10pm). Today was the final day of our summer programs, the much anticipated Bidgoods Summer Blast. Basically in a nutshell the day is 300 children, 40 Staff, 5 Buses, 4 Venues, and 1 responsibility, on me. It actually went REALLY well and i'm so freaking impressed with myself, honestly. I had soo many people commend me on how well it was organized and how smoothly it ran. I didn't get not one complaint from anyone that really mattered. For those of you who don't really know what the Summer Blast is, we take 300 kids and take them to a movie at studio 12, swimming at the aquarena have a bbq and then have a dance. Its absolute madness. It was my first year actually organizing the event, but the 4th year I've done it.

Overall my summer was excellent. I thought it was a really awesome experience for me at such a young age ( in ocmparison to all past co ordinators) to have such a great oppertunity at this job. I'm only 19 years old and I was given a pretty big responsibilty. I'm really glad that the board, despite their hesitation in giving me this job, chose me. I know now i can trust myself to make good decisions, that I am responsible, i can organize and I am a good leader. and despite the fact that i barely had time to breathe in the last three months working in this position this year has actually made me that much more mature, and that much more capable of dealing with great work related stress, deadlines and presentation. It may sound dorky, but this summer has really changed me. I really do believe in my abilities, especially after today.


I never would have done so well without my awesome staff ( see picture above) though. so in no particular order THANK YOU : Joanne, Jill, Sam, Jess, Kim, Raylene, Janie, Chris, Dickie, Michael, Hammond, Kerri, Ryan, Jeff, Stephen, Aaron and Josh!! You guys are absolutely amazing. So helpful and so ready to take on the world all of the time. Also Big thanks to Brenda,
Randy and Nicole. We make a great team. Hope we get to do it again next year!

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Yep.. I was right. Kicking myself for that one. Continue on about your buisness like it never happened. La La La I attribute the former post to this...

Charlie Lacosta.

I've been thinking a lot about Charlie lately, I'm not really sure why. Anytime I go anywhere I find myself secretly hoping I run into him. Just wanting to run up to him and say " OH My God! Chuck!". I wonder if he even remembers me..? I don't think there is a day that goes by that I don't think about him.

For those of you who don't know Charlie used to be one of my very best friends back in grade 9. I really truly believed the sun shone out of his rear, and i probably would have jumped over the moon for him if i thought it would make him happy. we spent an entire summer together. Every day, he'd ride his bike in from Prescott street just to see me. I think maybe if there is such a thing as a friendship soulmate, he would be mine.

Its been three years since I've seen him , three years! thats a really long time. And I miss him soo terribly. I shared so much with him and I told him absolutely everything, and because he screwed up his life, I lost him, against my will we slowly stopped talking, phone calls went from once a day, to once a week , once a month, once every 6 months and now , not call in a year, and with the path he was headed down, I really don't know if he's alive or dead. I know people have seen him , and those people weren't me. Its sad to see someone throw away their life like that. He was a smart boy with such great potential. he was and i know still is a beautiful person, inside and out. Charlie knew the real me, and i really think i knew the real Charlie. I bared my soul to him and he to me. and now we have nothing, he probably wouldn't even know me if he seen me. Its hard to go from such close friends to strangers, especially under the circumsatnces that we did, and its in times like the ones i've been having lately that I miss him the most. When i kno he would make me feel better and safe a secure again... Charlie if you're out there.. I need you..


Peace and Blessings

I told you so...

So true to my word I'm trying hard to write more often. I had a pretty shitty weekend overall. Went to the family reunion on saturday. It was an ok time. I got pretty drunk bt ended up home in bed by 11 yet again. Most of my cousins have small children so we drank early and finished early as welll. My mom owned the horse shoe tournament as per usual. Kinda missed having stefan there though. Not the same without him, but we all know that was for the best. Sunday again I sat home most of the day and went to a movie with Jason, Kayla and that guy last night. we saw wedding crashers. It was ok. I wasn't overly impressed but it was pretty funny.

So in other news I was reading Aarons BK journal last night and he was talking about al these old memories he had of growing up in the Goulds and it got me to thinking about some of the ones that I have. Remember all of those summer nights we spent on the sidewalk on Boland St? Watching Chubbs and Dennis skateboard. Having those crazy assed run ins with the "grade 8's"
How about selling shells on the side of the road. Me and ash used to do that for hours on end. How about all those nights spent in the park right after me and stefan started dating "stop making babies!" chilling out on the monkey bars just watching starts and being young *sigh* I miss those days, I miss not having to worry about paper work, or GPA's or finals exams and STI's. Life was so freaking simple, back when a month in a relationship was forever and making out meant you got with someone. I really wish we could just all get together for one night of just absolute foolishness. forget about work and school and relationships or lack there of. I'm only 20 and I already miss my youth. I grew up way too fast for my liking. Thats what i get for jumping into things that no 15 year old is ready for I suppose. Not that I would ever change my past, not for a million dollars, its just the curse of what ifs.

I was talking to Stefan last night and he was completely right in saying I haven't been myself in a long time. I really have no idea why i've been acting the way I have been. I don't really have an excuse. I'm just, I have no idea. Its not depressed because i'm still happy. its just I don't know who I am anymore because "me" as the happy person with lots of friends out having a good time feeling good about herself has always included another person, and now for the first time since I found that "me" I don't have another person to share it with. Its strange and unusual and I still haven't found a way to do it properly after 6 months. Its really hard. But like i've said before. I'll do it. I'm strong and now i just have to work on the independant part. I'll be ok. I always am.

Anyhoo I have a meeting to get ready for. People to see events to organize and gosh and golly gee I hope some more paper work to do. Goodnight people. And don't forget to comment. I've been feeling neglected.

Here I am again

The will be my first "real"post in a while. I've been super busy with lots of super cool things to do, what with work and rehersals and all I barely get time for myself anymore. Which explains why I am here in my underroos in bed at 11pm on a friday night. I sometimes just enjoy getting to spend the night by myself and just relaxing. I had another one of those very stressful weeks so its nice to just sit here and not really worry about anything

So exciting news for the week, Well Janie ( the girl from Quebec who was working for me for 6 weeks) finished up at work today, we had a surprise party for her yesterday. I took her out to pick things up with me in the morning for the sleepover next week and while we were gone the kids decorated the gym. I was absolutely amazed at how pretty they made it in only two hors with some construction paper and tape. Its was really pretty. They did it in a hawaiian theme. She seemed really surprised and loved the gifts we gave her. The kids all signed a newfoundland flag and made cards for her and we also bought her a necklace and pendant made from labradorite in the shape of a puffin. It was really pretty. And I made her a dvd slide show of her summer she spent with us with lots of cute and funny pictures of the summer. I think she really enjoyed it.

As well, we went on a boat tour today. and as coordinator i took on the ruling task of taking two different boat tours today and enjoying the beautiful sun and ocean for four and a half hours. Its a tough job but someone has to do it. It was a nice way to end a tough week. next week however will be brutal. our special event s a sleepover and i'm working on reviving the old rec centre tradition of Kangaroo Kourt, which is proving to be a somewhat difficult task. However I am determined to revive said tradition to make the summer more fun like the ones I used to have way back in the day.

On another note I realized today that I'm going to be 20 very very soon. Thats insane. I mean it seems as if i just turned 19, and now here I am staring the barrel of 20. where does time go? Its been a tough year, but as I discovered the other day it actually contained the happiest moment of my lif thus far to date that I can remember. Someone asked me the other day if I could pinpoint the happiest moment of my life that i've lived so far. and I took a really long time to think about it. like hard and serious, and it may shock some people to know what I came up with.. Midnight of new years eve. I really can't remember being so pefectly happy as I was at that moment. I had everything I felt I wanted and needed and I was just so perfectly happy. But like all things real, good things must come to an end and thats over now, Im just very glad I got to enjoy that moment of shear bliss. I know some people aen't so fortunate as to ever experience that feeling that I had, and for that I'm very thankful. I think growing up is supposed to be tough. I think your'e supposed to jump from insanely happy to insanely depressed so easily so you can really experience what "grown up" life is about. because I think lifes moral really could be shit happens , but so does magic. you just have to be prepared. I don't mean to become so philosopical but people this really is what life is all about, its about living. its about gathering experiences, learning and appreciating things for what they are and what they offer. If you can;t take a lesson from a situation be it good or bad I don't think you're really living at all. EVERYTHING happens for a reason, and life is finding that reason.

This has actually become a bit of a long winded entry. But thats ok. I think its best I start wrting here more again. Its been too hard keeping my thoughts bottled up. anyway I'm going to get some beauty sleep, The Bavis Family reunion is tomorrow and I want to look my best. Have a wonderful night everyone. God Bless

Peace and Blessings
Rhonda

More pics

So here's the deal

I had the best day I've prolly had in a very long time yesterday. I got to go to Renews. The one place where I know I have nothing to worry about and i can feel completely free and relaxed and just not stress over anything anymore. It was one of the most beautiful days I remember being there in a long time, and lucky for you guys I brought my camera, so here's a lil treat for the eyes.

Quizzy thing. Make me happy and do it in my comments!

I stole a quiz from Rebecca
Three names you go by:
~ Rhonda
~ Ru
~ Rhondu

Three things you like about yourself:
~ My butt.
~ That I never get really angry
~ The choices I've made thus far

Three things you dislike about yourself:
~ That I don't like being alone
~ my insecurity
~ that i'm so soft hearted

Three parts of your heritage:
~ Irish
~ English
~ Newfoundlander

Three things that scare you:
~ people who pretend their going to hit me
~ Havng my heart broken again
~ Not having kids

Three of your everyday essentials:
~ A shower
~ my purse/wallet
~ friends!

Three things you are wearing right now:
~ tank top
~ Jeans
~ Livestrong

Three of your favorite songs at present:
~ When I see you smile
~ There were Roses
~ Wild is the wind

Three new things you want to try in the next 12 months:
~ English society
~ dancing
~ dating?

Two truths and a lie:
~ I really have to pee right now
~ I'm absolutely terrified of this production
~ I love cheese

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
~ Smile
~ Smell (is that physical?)
~ Eyes

Three things you can't do at the moment:
~ Tell people how I really feel
~ Be who I want to be
~ Run away

Three of your favorite hobbies:
~ Singing
~ Acting
~ Scrapbooking

Three things you really want to do right now:
~ Help a friend who needs it badly
~ Kiss someone
~ Tell that same someone how I feel

Three careers you are considering:
~ Public Relations
~ ^^
~ ^

Three places you want to go on vacation:
~ London
~ Vancouver
~ Cairo

Three kids names:
~ Charleigh Allanaugh
~ Maurita Alice
~ Penelleopea Alexandera
~ and I'm adding a fourth because i'm having four kids Jakub Noah

Three things you want to do before you die:
~ Have children
~ Marry a man who loves me as much as i love him
~ make someone so happy they cry

The week from hell.

I've had the worst week imaginable. There are certain things you never want to hear when you're working with Children and i'm pretty sure I've heard every one of them this week. For legal reasons I can't go into detail here , or with anyone really and that really eats me up inside. Its just one of those things you want to tell people and it it off your chest but you know you can't. And its just eating me from the inside out. in my four years at this job I haven't heard anything remotely like what i heard this week. Its tough. I'm nineteen years old with all this responsibility and i really have to strive to prove myself. Being a perfectionist is stressful. I am not complaining about my job. I love my job I just dislike the circumstances under which I had to work this week, and My relaxing weekend isn't really working out to be all that relaxing at all. I really cant wait to get back to school. At least I know I'm good at school and I only have myself to please or displease. At work there are just so many people breathing down my neck and depending on me. Its crazy. I love it but its getting to me a little. Thankfully I have wednesday off and I decided to take thursday morning off as well. I'm gonna go out wednesday night after the regatta and have a good time. I need to just stop thinking about work and the other stresser in my life just for a lil while and focus on having a good time. not thinking about what I have to do tomorrow at work .
Besides work there really isn't much else for me to talk about. As you have probably gathered it almost consumes my life. the only other tidbit I can think to mention is that painted my room really bnright pink this week, thats pretty hardcore. So i'm off to find something to do. A word to the wise: Redbull before bed is never a good idea.

Peace and Blessings

Remember when..

I used to use this blog thing to talk about how insanely happy I was and how I had not a care in the world.. *sigh* how those were the days.. I talked, earlier in a BK journal entry, about how i didn't understand how I could be so drastically different from high school and still feel like the exact same person. In high school I felt ingnored and rejected from most people, aside from my small group of friends, now its like everyone has some use for me and needs me to be there for them right now. I have so many people pulling me in so many different directions all the time and I really have no idea which way to go. I'm begining to think most of my goals I have set for my sel, i'm not going to be able to obtain. So what do I do? The easiest way is not always the best way, I know, but is it ok for me to take the easy way out once in my life? just not prevent myself from further complicating my situations. Just go with the flow and hope everything works out? or should I continue to fight for what I truly want like I always do and most likely end up disappointed and hurt? I know I'm strong. I am a very strong person. I never would have gotten through half of the things I did without being strong, but it was only one straw that broke the camels back, right? how do I know it won't be the next one that does it for me? Life really terrifys me. Why is life so full of impossible questions... "whats the meaning of life?".." Why don't you love me anymore?"

Peace and Blessings

Changes

I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands
(how I feel) I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb
I try to hold this Under control They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone
Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone
I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn
It feel like I've been buried underneath all the weight of the world
I try to hold this Under control They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm blind and shakin'Bound and breaking
I hope I make it through all these changes
Now I'm going through changes, changes God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately When I get suffocated,
I hate this But I'm going through changes, changes

Exasperated. Yeah thats right, Aaron.

It takes so much out of me just to be me. My job is awesome but I constantly worry about work. All of the time. If you hadn't noticed I just can't leave work at work at all. And then I have all of these people who want so much from me. So much that I just can't give right now. I've spent the last 5 years of my life constantly worried about another person, is it really so much to ask to want to focus on me for a little while?
This being alone thing is so new to me. It really is. I just don't know how to deal with it and its really taking a lot out of me. I've been seeing someone since right afer boys stopped being gross and now i'm alone for the very first time. Its a scary world to face alone. Its a good thing that I'm doing it because it really is something that everyone should experience, but how much can i take before i crumple and have no one to lean on. its all so very confusing to me. I just wish I knew what I wanted so i could please people and start being me again. I haven't felt like myself in months. I just wish i could get away from everything for awhile. go do something fun and exciting. I'm just feeling so much pressure from everyone. I feel like i'm letting people down and disappointing everyone. I miss the happy hyper Rhonda too but she's scared to come out and get hurt again I think ... *sigh*

*sings*

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life
Trying to make ends meet, you're a slave to the money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah
No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change, but I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold But I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mold, no, no, no, no, no
Well, I've never prayed, But tonight I'm on my knees, yeahI
need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah I let the melody shine,
let it cleanse my mind , I feel free now But the airwaves are clean
and there's nobody singing to me now
No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,
but I'm here in my mold , I am here with my mold

Just a quote..

..a friend of mine had on their AOL away message. Thought I'd post it.

Just when you think you have life all figured out, something or someone comes along and turns it upside down. you cant ignore it, even if its just this feeling. if u try to it will eat away at everything you hold dear to you. you have to face it head on, dont run from it. embrace feelings that scare you and never forget your prolly not the only one who is scared....

Blast from the past.

So here I was reading through some of my old stuff on blue Kaffee and I find a post I made back in february on a serisou discussion topis on "are you truly happy".. this is what I had to say

oddly enough i am perfectly happy. For the first time , in a long time, i feel like i am in control of my own destiny. I am thinking and acting solely for myself, I know that sounds selfish , but for me its a rare occurance. I find myself constantly smiling about nothing and have discovered a new confidence i didn't even know i had. I have the most wonderful boyfriend i could ever ask for who loves me and makes sure everyday he tells me just how amazing he thinks i am and how beautiful I am. I have the most wonderful friends a girl could ask for.. who see my faults and accept them and love me anyway. My family are absolutely amazing as of late and are being really supportive of the decisions i have made over the past few months. Yep life is incredible :)

So its amazing how things change so fast huh? not that i'm not really happy, just that i'm not near as happy as i was nor could be.

So I had a pretty crappy week. I got next to no work donw this week due to some unfortunate events that happened during the week that placed me under a pile of paper work. On the whole though work has been going good, been questioning my leadership capablities though. I hope i'm doing a good job .. :(.

I saw willy wonka last night. I have to say I really liked it. It was excellent. I went with jason :) it was good times. I'm going out to supper with the girls tonight. that should be great. Love my girls. I can always rely on them to make me happy :) Anyway i'm out

Peace and Blessings

THIS is a song I wrote myself

The letter from you to me

Dear Past love
I’m just writing to say
Its time for you to get over me
I never really loved you anyway
However
I didn’t mean to cause you pain
I didn’t mean for it to hurt
It was all a joke
I didn’t think it would bother you
To feel your heart so broke

Because you won’t tell me
I’m writing a letter from you
I need to know now baby
If anything you said was true
I told you there wasn’t
Much more pain I could take
Did you think it wouldn’t hurt
When you made my heart break?

I know I said I loved you
It was just for fun
How else could I convince you
That you might have been the one?
I told you that your beauty
Could never even compare
Ok so I made that up
I barely even noticed you there

Because you won’t tell me
I’m writing a letter from you
I need to know now baby
If anything you said was true
I told you there wasn’t
Much more pain I could take
Did you think it wouldn’t hurt
When you made my heart break?

So I’m sorry I felt nothing
And made you feel it all
It was my plan all long
To make you trip and fall
You’re a nice girl
You’re funny you make me laugh
But that’s too bad
Regards, The Lover From The Past

Because you won’t tell me
I’m writing a letter from you
I need to know now baby
If anything you said was true
I told you there wasn’t
Much more pain I could take
Did you think it wouldn’t hurt
When you made my heart break?

Did you think it wouldn’t hurt
When you made my Heart break?

And the beat goes on..

"Missing Me"

I love the way it feels when you touch my hand

Don't wanna let you go

I love the way you say that I am the one

Don't understand why we can't go on and go on

Don't understand why

You don't belong in my arms

Ohh

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight

Would you come back to me

And even if I walked on the water

Would you come out to sea

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

It's funny how my heart just won't let it go

I just don't understand

It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow

The memories of you here with me by my side

I can't deny that you are the love of my life

OhhAnd even if I cried a thousand tears tonight

Would you come back to me

And even if I walked on the water

Would you come out to sea

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

And I still cry for you

And I would die for you

I can't believe all the words I heard you say

And I still long for you

And I was strong for you

I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

I still cry for youI would die for you

I can't believe all the words I heard you say

I still long for youI was strong for you

I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight

Would you come back to me

And even if I walked on the water

Would you come out to sea

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

I still cry for you

I would die for you

I can't believe all the words I heard you say

I still long for youI was strong for you

I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

*le sigh* someone comment to cheer me up

My week with Connor

So Connor went home yesterday :( I'm going to miss him soo much. I love that kid. He came to work with me on friday and he had soo much fun. Sitting by me on the bus he told all about what he was gonna do with me next time i went to Boston.. take me to the zoo, back to the aquarium to see the SHARKS, to six flags and of course he said shopping for shoes. We went out for chinese food on friday night too. We had an amazing time. Then yesterday morning he called me. He told me he was going to miss me and i told hm i would miss him more. then we started to argue which ended up with him threatening to come over and squat me. He asked me if I could mail myself to Boston :( I promised him though i;d be down by the time he was 8 ( that makes me 21 ;) ) Anyway I'm getting yelled at to go get a shower now so i'll update about the rest of my week later.

A bit of a long winded one tonight..

So a lot has happened in the last week. Its been pretty freaking awesome overall.

First off camp started and its been going really really well. A few minor hitches but i mean thats to be expected when running any buisness. The kids are enjoying it, the parents are pleased and my programming has been running smoothly. I haven't been getting to go as many places with the kids, but thats ok because i really enjoy the people i work with, so when the kids are gone i get to talk to Brenda or Nicole usually and they're cool chicks. PJ was right this job is awesome. Wow, I'm talking about my job lately as much as I used to talk about Ricardo before. Haha BUt i get money for this so its better :-P Sorry!

So also my family from Boston came on thursday. I got to see my little man on friday (Conner) God I love that kid. He's just soo amazing and soo smart. I've never met a kid so smart in my life. He was over tonight and we watched Gargoyles! he was telling me all this stuff about why people had gargoyles in real life and stuff. And about sharks.. of course. He's like a walking shark encycleopedia. he's coming on special event on friday at work.. haha there I go talking about work again...

So Friday was Canada day and me and all my girl cousins went downtown with Thersa and Suzy from Boston. It was freaking amazing. I drank soo much and never got hung over or anything. In a nutshell the night consisted of discussing out sex lives, almost having a porn star try out and dancing on tables with my God mother. And lets not forget getting an old man tossed out of the sundance fresh prince/Jazz style. word to the wise guys. Never lay your hands on a girl and have her scream no next to a bouncer downtown. LOL I had such an amazing night with them. I never really hang out with my family and it was just really super cool, we decided we were all going to go to Boston for thersa's 40th birthday in 3 years. So i'll be 21 then! woo

Other than That i've been rehersing for Birdcage for two weeks now. Thats going to be cool. I'm doing vocals. I'm a bit nervous as I swore after prom i'd never sing in public again But i hope i do well and get through it. Like i've said before i don't care what part I have as long as i get to be a part in the production. Dead Pan Alley is just filled with great people and good times. And not to forget Don trying to get me to give him the clap. God I love that man! haha also been making time for my most awesome girls. HOw I love them! and hanging out with my husband too. Yeah life is going good.

Anyhoo thats about all I have to say. I really should get to bed as i'm going to work at 8:00 tomorrow... hehe Night Night you gorgeous people you!

Peace and Blessings

A quote to live by

Some people always ask me of why I'm so accepting of things that happen to me. I just found this quote and it explains perfectly how I like live. I thought I should share.

"Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away" - Sex & The City