The Year End Reveiw. ( I warn you I've been Watching a lot of Oprah)

I would be stupid to say its been a great year. Its had amazingly great moments, but its been rocky and hard. But I really believe I can say I learned more lessons this year than any other year. I feel this year I've really grown up, made a lot of tough desicions and become more independant that I ever thought I could be emotionally. I've strengthened some realtionships of my past, cut relationships that have been dragging me down, and made great new relationships too. This year has really opened my eyes to a lot of things in this life that I had never been exposed to before, a lot of things I had been to ignorant, I suppose, to realize before. I wanted to blind myself from some harsh realitys of "the grown up" world I had been avoiding. So here it is. my year end reveiw. I'm going to be brutally honest.

January started out amazing. I have previously described my new years eve as the single most happy moment of my life up to that point. And I won't deny that. AT the time I couldn't remember being happier. Surrounded by my friends and a boyfriend who I had believed that I loved at the time. I spent a lot of January wrapped up in a fantasy of lust. I went back to school after a semester off and was doing really well. I was really enjoying life and the year had a bright outlook.

However in February just after valentines day that al took a turn when Ricardo and I broke up. It was the first time someone had broken up with me and in reality, the first time i truly felt rejected by someone I cared about. My fantasy world came crashing down. I was nothing short of devestated. And i'm not shy in saying now I actually, for a very short time, reverted to my ways of thinking when i was 14 years old. I shortly relapsed and began not eating and making myself sick again, but realized also very quickly that I didn't want to be that way again. But i continued for a long time in a priod of dpression and self hatred and blamed myself for being rejected by him. I finished my semester with my worst marks yet and I cared very little about it.

June rolled around and I still felt miserable about everything that had happened. I really felt like something was wrong with me. Ricardo and I had been together less than three months and I was now mourning our relationship longer than I had actually been in it. HOwever in JUne I found out I recieved a promotion at work and became the Day Camp Coordinator. ANyone who knows me knows that I dearly love working at the rec centre so getting this postion was a dream come true. I put my heart and soul into my work there this summer. I dearly loved every day there, no matter how stressful it got sometimes. It was wonderful. I began thinking during my time this summer and in retrospect what I felt for Ricardo was not close to love. It was barely a relationship at all. It was phyical attraction in the raw. There was barely anything beneath the surface of what we had. We laughed a lot together but again, even that was rooted in the lust we had. I can't even carry a conversation with him anymore. Nor do I really want to. I have nothing to say to him, and I know he has very little to say to me. AT the time I saw how good looking he was (and I won't deny that he is a good looking guy) and I thought this is the best I'll ever do. He's a great looking guy and he's funny, but beyond that, there was very little. It was superficial relationship. Again in true Rhonda fashion, I'm really happy it happened. look at what I learned about relationships and myself. It was a hard long road to learn it, but I finally got it.

This summer also I got back into acting, after a three year retirment :P. I am soo thankful for Janet Graham and My Deadpan Family. I started as an understudy in "the Angry 12" then by some miracle they convinced me to sing for the birdcage and now I'm playing the girlfriend of the Main Character in "The Full Monty" will be at the LSPU hall in february. So keep in touch for tickets to that one. Deadpan Alley has been a God sent to me. You guys are a major part of my life and I couldn't be more blessed to have you in my life. I love you guys.

So when the Summer was over I felt ready to open up again and have a good time. Which turned out to be the turning point in my craptacular year. After a summer of emotional highs and lows, with my new job and a night in the cove being the high points and a night out that never should have happened being a low I decided to get back to the things I loved and Volunteered as an orientation leader for the fall semester at MUN. I met soo many amazing people there. and Had so much fun. Definatly the one of the higest points of my year were those three days I spent out there. Dancing the OV boogie, meeting Darcy, Chris, Dennis, Meghan, Richard.. all those amazing people was awesome. Acting like a fool in front of 1500 first year students ballroom dancing with sammy seahawk and being the BEST DAMN M ever! Most importantly though Orientation brought me to Darcy. This is the way a relationship is is supposed to be. I can talk to him for hours about nothing, I can be comfortable in silence with him. I know he's going to be there for me emotionally when I need him and it goes sooooo far beyond anything physical. When I'm with him I feel safe and I don't doubt at any time how he feels about me because when I hear him speak and see him look at me I know he loves me. However, nothing great comes without loss. Appearantly some people can't stand to see me with someone else ad since Darcy and I have been together some people have completely disregarded me from their lives, people who told me everyday they loved me this summer and claimed to be my true friends. They seemed to be ok with it at first, but when they figured out I was in ths relationship for the long run they have stopped talking to me all together. One particular friend, who I rarely got to see anyway because he lives 10 hours away hasn't talked to me in months, depite the fact he said we'd be friends no matter what. Another has countlessly disappointed me, saying he would show up to my play.. three times? and never bothered to show, said he'd visit me and never did and walked away from me in the feild house, after being "so close" this summer, which i now percieve to be a load of bull. and one friend just blatantly came out and said " we can't hang out while you're in a relationship" which in fact I'd much prefer, I like honesty, if you couldn't tell. the others - Clearly if you're going to treat me like that because I found happiness, I don't need you.

So this semester has been amazing. I did really awesome in school. Landed and amazing job at the Student Volunteer Bureau (SVB) which is my new love affair. I never thought I'd have a job I love so much as the rec centre but I found myself talking yesterday about how I couldn't wait to go back to school because I miss work and I miss my friends there. I worked at the Rec Centre still and rehearsed rougly 8 hours a week. Did an amazing production with rave reveiws of the birdcage, fell hopelessly in love and got to spend huge amounts of time with the girls who mean the most to me. Ashleigh Kayla and Murrdogg. I don't know how Id go on without you. You are the loves of my life. You mean everything from here to the moon and back to me. You are everything I want and need in this life and the next. Aaron Critch you are the best guy friend I could ever want. You should be the idol for all other males to worship and follow by example.

So Christmas Came and Darcy left. I've wrote about that. I don't need to repeat myself. I got great gifts for christmas, had a night downtown with my girls. been casually drinking a lot. went to church seen family i havent seen in ages and haven't shut up about how I turned my year around and am happier now and more focused on making a future for myself than ever. So I'll end this entry much like Aaron did On BK, by making a list of lessons I leanred this year. I've learned a lot so I'm going to limit myself to the top 10 .

1. Love is not physical. Lust is. love goes much farther beyond the physical and wraps your heart and soul in warmth. Love makes you feel safe, and harbours no doubt. Love is everything it is written to be and a hundred thousand words more that no great writer could ever capture.

2. Just because is the best reason to do something nice for someone else.

3. You can ALWAYS get more toast.

4. Never drink to the point that you allow yourself and your best friend to be videotaped in bed with a naked guy you've never met before.

5. The future doesn't become great without preparation and acceptance. Live for the moment but don't be afraid to put some thought into the moments to come.

6. Always remember your ID ;)

7. Kids can become deadly weapons when armed with thumbtacks and a phone

8. Friendship is not a conditonal thing. If you're my friend, be my friend, do not be my friend under certain circumstances. If you decide to do that, you were my never my friend to begin with and I do not need you in my life.

9. Everything happens for a reason. The glass is half full and there is a lesson to be learned from everything. If you can't find it, you haven't looked hard enough. I work hard to find the lesson and the positive to every bad thing that has ever happened to me. Thats why I am not bitter. If you don't believe me. Ask me and I will tell you everything I have leanred from everything. I am thankful and have no regrets toward every horrible to thing to have ever happened to me.

10. Last but certainly not least, Friendship is the most important thing in life. My friends have done more for me than I could ever express in words. Thank you from the bottom on of my heart to Ashleigh, Kayla, Murrdogg, and Aaron. I NEVER would have gotten through this year, especially the first half without you. I owe you everthing.

So I knpow I've left out a lot. But its been a year full of heartbreak, love and raw emotion and inner strength. Here's to the New year everybody.

Peace and Blessings.
Rhonda


Edit: So appearantly some of my thoughts have come out wrong. Someone commented that if they were darcy they'd feel like crap because of the way he was depicted. I think thats probably because of the way I depicted Ricardo and I want to set the record stright. Most of my year was spent dealing with the hatred that Ricardo made me feel for myself. That is why this blog is focused on that. I think Darcy is HANDSOME smart, sophisticated, funny, and in short the best thing to ever happen to me. I wanted to make the point that what I have with him goes so much deeper than that, but appearantly I need to state the fact that "HEY! GUESS WHAT EVERYONE! I'M REALLY FREAKING ATTRACTED TO MY BOYFRIEND AND I THINK HE'S EXTREMELY HANDSOME" so in case anyone had any doubt about how I feel about him, I love him. Real honest love. I shouldn't have to vaildate this, but here you go.

Holy Christmas Eve, Batman!

Well. Its here. Ready or not. ALl this preparation, stress, money time and effort all for something that will be mostly done with by 10:00 tomorrow morning. Its pretty silly when you put into perspecttive like that huh? But thats not what its all about. Its about spending time with the people you love ( no matter how far away they may be). Anyway there is Chrsitmas coming out of everybody's ears so thats not what I came here to write about. My day yesterday was definatly worth a blog so here it is.

So I woke up at 5am. Yes 5am during my holidays. Got showered and all dressed up and by 7am was out the door to go to the Ft. William Building ( the Aliant Building for those of you who didn't know) as there was a beautiful morning set up for employees and their families, with a very pretty breakfast on the 4th floor with a gorgeous veiw of the harbour and the sunrise-ishness. in the background you could hear the Newfoundland Symphony Youth choir preforming ont he main level if the foyer in the building (which goes 6 floors up, the enitre height of the buliding) Singing the most beautifully harmonized christmas songs. It was absolutely wonderful. Its one of the parts of Christmas I still really look forward to. It usually happens on Christmas eve but due to the position of the holiday this year they had it yesterday.

We then left there to go see my grampy at the Vet Pavillion ( his new home). He was out sitting in the hallway in his wheelchair when we got there. Wearing his santa claus hat and his christmas tie. Thats one thing I have to say about Grampy, no matter where he was or what he was doing or even how old and confused he is, he is ALWAYS dressed emaculatly. However, I'm not liking this new place he's in. When we got there his glasses weren't on his face - we couldn't find them anywhere. We asked the nurse who nonchalantly mentioned that they had been missing since yesterday. My 94 year old grandfather who can see better than I can when he wears his glasses has been going around near blind for the past few days because the nurses haven't bothered to put his backup glasses on him. I guess I'm just not used to seeing him like this. Up until 5 years ago my poppy was living on his own cooking huge feeds every other day (he is a chef) and now he's reduced to this. Its hard for me. We sat down to talk to him in the common room there and told us he'd ben in renews this week to see his father. just in case any of you don't get this, he's 94. His father has loooong past. He also talked about getting a car again. My poppy has never sat behind the wheel of a car. Makes me really sad to hear him so confused, but like i said, he's 94, he has a lot of things to remember. He's doing well though. I just wish he was still back at Kelly's Care Home. That place is amazing.

So we left there and I came home and got ready to go shopping with Christopher Downey. No, we didnt go Christmas shopping. He had to buy thongs. thats right. and when we found the appropriate ones he then had to buy some tnght leather pants and a mesh shirt. I've never laughed so hard before in my whole life. people were watching him in the dressing room at value village. One guy called him a fucking pimp. not in a cool way either. I thought he was going to go punch the face off of Chris. It was hilarity at its finest. I also got a moose for David while we were at the mall. I seen him working at bootlegger, and I figured its christmas and this poor sweet boy has been working like crazy because retail is nuts, so i went o sears and got hm a stuffed moose and brought it to him for christmas. I tried to just drop it and leave but he'd have none of it. David is such a sweet boy. Wish I knew him a lil better but he doesn't seem to be too interested in being my friend much, but thats ok, he's super.

Then I came home and had a glass of milk (haha) and started in on a book I wanted to start reading. Its called "A Million Little Pieces" If you haven't read it. do it. You won't regret it. Especially if you know anyone who struggles with addiction. Its hard for me to read. I winced. I wanted to vomit, but i read. It made me think of Charlie, and hope he's ok. but its amazingly written and 100% ture. Its an oprahs book club book. You should really read it. its worth it.

Then it was wrapping time. I hadn't wrapped any of my presents yet because I couldn't get any alone time in my house. no one listens to the "don't come in" rule in my house so its wrap when you can and wrap fast. so i got that done and talked to Darcy for a bit on the phone then hit they hay.

Christmas holidays are going well. not going by fast enough for my liking but its bearable. I miss Darcy horribly. But i've been keeping busy and I've talked to him almost everyday. and I have my friends and my CD's to keep me company. I'm finished work until the new yearso thats pretty awesome too. I needed a vacation, but I REALLY can't wait to get back yto the Student Volunteer Bureau. Who would have guessed I'd fall in love with a job as much as I had with the Rec Centre, I absolutely freaking love the SVB and I'm so excited to start my work there next semester. SO much event planning and organizing,, and maybe even some alphabetizing.. eeeeee

SO this isn't my year in review like I has predeicted., but I need to wait until after tomorrow for that, so when I get time next week it will come. Merry Christmas everyone. May the season of love and giving over take you and may you forget anything bad that has happened this year and embrace all the goodness in your life and thank god for this wonderful time of the year. Have a joyous New Year. :)

12 Cd's left :)

Peace and Blessings

School's Out!

So this week has been pretty eventful. Sunday Night Darcy and I celebrated Christmas. He gave me the MUN sweater I really wanted and a Belle stocking with choclates in it :) and a santa/princess hat. It's pink and has Princess written on it. Monday started out with my second last exam! Grammar.. yuk! As much of grammar nazi as I am , I really disliked that course. However, the exam was a breeze and I'm pretty confident that I aced it.
Tuesday was the day I had been dreading, Darcy left :( . I was really sad about it but I know he'll have an awesome time while he's home. Doesn't make it any easier on me but at least I know he's coming back. He gave me the most awesome present ever at the airport. And I mean EVER. He's gone for 24 days. Thats a long time. But he gave me 24 cd's and a cd with a video on it with instructions. On the video he was wearing a suit and tie ( he looked so cute!) and he told me that I had a CD for everyday he was gone and every CD had a theme. I was only allowed to listen to one CD a day so I'd have something new everyday until he came back. Then after that video was over there was a picture slide show of pictures of him and I together with "When You Say Nothing At All" playing in the background. It was by far the most sentimental and romantic gift I have ever gotten. I absolutely bawled when I opened it. Only 18 CD's left until he comes back.
Wednesday and Thursday were spent with my nose in the books again. I had my last exam on thursday night. War and Aggression. I thought it was the most amazing exam I have ever written. I seriously kicked that exams butt. I wrote about the Rwandan Genocide of 1994. It was a very powerful book that I read. I would recomend it to anyone, whether they were taking the course or not. Its called "We Wish to Inform You Tomorrow We Will be Killed Along With Our Famillies" by Philip Gourevitch. If you have any desire to read Non-Fiction pick this book up or ask me for a loan of it.
Friday Was awesomely sweet. I got up super early and went shopping with Raylene ( my sister) then i got home and went to work until 5:30. Then i came home got ready in mad rush and then took off to a fogdevils game with my girls. We all sat together and watched the hockey game. Then we got a cab to Matts house where we primed up to go downtown. Ashleigh got really loaded and it was pretty awesome. Then we headed downtown, went to 180 for a few minutes however that didn't last long due to the creeps that inhabit that place. So we headed to the faithful Peddlers and boogied the night away. It was so awsome to get out with the girls for an amazing night like that.
Last night I was pretty much in the mood to chill after such a busy week, so Ches came up and we watched Christmas with the Kranks. What a corny movie. Haha Told you he was Santa! Then we chatted it up for a few hours. It was nice to get to talk to Ches like that, haven't done so in a long time. I miss the old days when we all used to hang out sometimes. BUt we all know that situation just wasn't always good. I miss you guys though. You were my life for a long time. Stefan, Colin, Hayden, Adam and Ches we all have to hang out over christmas.. if you're up for it?
Anyway thats my week. I really miss Darcy but I'm doing fine, I have the most amazing friends I could ever ask for. I know I say that every entry but I really do.

I guess my next entry will probably be my year in reveiw. Stay tuned!

Peace and Blessings!

This kept me awake last night.

I really thought I had a ton of great people in my life, however, thinking about it lately I have 5 people who I can really trust whole heartedly. Those five people know who they are. I have a lot of good people in my life, but since September I've lost a lot of people that I considered to be some of my closest friends. It seems as though those people had intention with me that if they weren't able to persue, I was of no use to them. You know how you are and what I mean. I've addressed the issue with some of you in an attempt to make it better, but as you can see this is still getting to me, and the fact that you have still isolated me just validates everything I said. I'm disappointed that our friendship had to be reduced to this. But I guess its better this way because I can see our relationship for what it was really worth to some of you.

Now by the tone of this entry you'd probably think I was bitter, but let me falsify that right now. I couldn't be happier. In true Rhonda fashion I'm taking the best from this, not the worst. I know who my true friends are. I know who really cares about me and who doesn't. Friendship is not a conditional thing and if you're going to exile me from your life just because I changed one simple aspect, then you're really not the person I thought you were. I couldn't be happier with my life right now. I'm happy and I have the best friends in the world that I could ever ask for. Ashleigh, Kayla, Murrdogg and Aaron I love you to death. I don't know what I'd do without you. Darcy, you're amazing and I love you to no end. Everyone else in my life that I love, I wouldn't be the same without you. But those of you who think this entry is aimed at you - it probably is. Try to fix it if you want. I don't care. Really I think I'm probably better off without you if you made me feel this way anyway!

:)

Peace and Blessings!

Thank You

What does love feel like? It feels like every ounce of your being is focused on one person. That no matter what happens in life all will be ok because you always have someone to support you. It feels as if with every laugh that person shares, a new world is born and with every tear they shed, a world is destroyed. Every time you’re with him time stops and everything else loses all meaning there is no doubt no fear just him. You see him sitting there, looking at you so strong yet so gentle and everything in life is complete. You struggle no more, you stress no more. Everything else may come or go but you have all you need right here, as the other half of your soul stares back at you.

With a simple glace into your eyes you make me forget everything bad that has ever happened to me. I had the most horrible day today that I’ve had in along time, and when I seen you it’s like it was like it never happened. There was nothing else on the earth that mattered. There was me, there was you, and there was our love. Thank you for being the supportive boyfriend I’ve never had. Thank you for understanding me and making me feel like I’m sane in this insane world in which we live. Thank you for making me laugh when all I want to do is cry and thank you for helping me to catch my breath when I feel like I don’t have time to breath. Thank you for the kisses, the hugs, the flowers, the words of encouragement and the hours of silence spent in your arms. Thank you for being everything I ever hoped for.

Life, Or something like it..

So life has been pretty crazy. I love it. working two jobs, rehearsing pretty close to 8 hours a wee, 5 courses, friends, boyfriend, family christmas shopping, yep its that time of the year again folks! we had our annual family Christmas party last night. It was great. I had an awesome time and my family really seemed to get a long with Darcy well. They all really liked him :) That makes me really happy.

ANother exciting event of the recent has been that Kayla got accepted to Frecker! I'm sooo excited for her! I love to see my friends achieve what they strive for! I'm going to miss her tons in the three months she's gone but i'm soo happy for her at the same time. Its bittersweet really. Its just so crazy that everyone's lives are moving so fast all of a sudden. We're all grown up. Murrdogg and I are slated for graduation next april! we're gonna convocate together! Thats really super awesome! Then what am I gonna do? Only time will tell I suppose. I'd like to think I'd go to Humber, Get that post Grad certificate and maybe make a life for myself. who knows.. maybe i'll be a bum.

Have you noticed my blogs have been focused on my future lately? I'm not really sure thats a good thing.. I like to live for the moment and I've become such a planner.. its odd. I'm thinking months in advance and its only since i started this semester that i've been like that. I guess its really hitting me now that I'm all grown up. I don't have the right to be a kid anymore and worry about partying every weekend and chasing useless dreams. Now if only some people I knew could get the same mentality. Life is not about living from party to party. Its about making your life count, making the the world a better plae because of yourself not in spite of yourself.

Anyhoo thats all I have to say. Pics from last night.. yes.

You know what pisses me off?

Nothing! Yeah thats right nothing!

I've been reading some of my friends blogs lately and it has come to my attention, you people hate a lot of things., Its rant after Rant about the useless crap that makes your life so dreadful. Wake up people! Life is a beautiful miraculous thing and you should thank your lucky stars every day you get to take another breath and witness another day on God's beautiful earth. I know I used to be equally as guilty as some of you, ranting and raving about how horrible life was, but you know what - that was crap. I have an amazing life filled with amazing people and amazing experiences. There are so many wonderful things on this earth, who cares if someone doesn't like the way I dress, or the cashiers at wal mart are too slow.. right now at this very moment someone loves you and wishes nothing but the best for you! How can you not greet the world with open arms, put aside the few negative aspects of your life and embrace all the good that you have? You people are way to cranky when you write and you're very seldom show appreciation of all the good that you have. You woke up this morning thats all the reason in the world to fall on your knees and thank God ( Or science - whatever it is you believe) that you have what you do. So here's a list of some of the things i'm thankful for..

1. My health
2. My family
3. My friends
4. My boyfriend
5. A roof over my head
6. The oppertunity to get a good education
7. The extra weight I carry around ( that means I have enough to eat)
8. Music
9. Laughter
10. Cuddles
11. Smiles from strangers
12. The parking guy who says good morning
13. Clocktower password
14. The faith that I have
15. Good books
16. Love
17. being loved
18. Living where I do
19. having a warm bed to sleep in
20. A pink unicorn
21. dancing
22. singing
23. rent
24. dreams
25. fantasies

And I made that list in under a minute. Come on guys.. show me that you're optimistic too.. what makes your life so fantastic?

English 2002

I'm sitting here in English 2002 - Drama. I dont know why I bother coming here. I never pay attention. I should. I had a paper due last friday I haven't started yet. However the Prof said we don't actually have to hand it in on time because he hasn't finished our last papers yet. Glad to see he's on the ball with things. Funny part is i'm acually doing a class with him next semster. Oh well. At least I know he's an easy marker.

So onto my updates. What did I do this weekend you ask? well Friday I went to see harry Potter. First showing of the day and only 15 people in the theatre. People really need to learn the secrets of Mt Pearl Square. It was a really good movie. I enjoyed it. Me and Darcy then hung out for the remainder of the night. went on a quest for chocolate cake and then I fell asleep before I could eat it.. come to think of it I still haven't. Dammit, now I want my chocolate cake. Yesterday I went to see my Grandpa. I really need to start visiting him more. He's getting old, and confused, his health isn't what it used to be and he lives farther from me now. I miss my poppy. I miss the days from back home, waking up at 6am raising the flag and fishing in the river with him *sigh* Its sad to watch the health of someone you love so dearly slip away. He's 94 though, i can't expect much more.

So I posted some song lyrics a few posts ago, "You" by Amy Lee. Its a really pretty song and I think everyone should listen to it. I have - 271 times since saturday. hehe.

So heres what I gather, after thinking things through today and yesterday. After next semester I will have all of my arts requirements done. I'll have 4 sociology courses done and 6 english courses done. that means I have 8 courses left to do 6 english and 2 sociology so i think its a pretty reasonable goal to set for myself to graduate next april. Can you believe it? Little Rhonda Pittman with a university degree and all grown up. After i get that done its my next goal to move out on my own. Partially because I want to go work on my PR program, quite possibly in Ontario, and partially because I'm begining to be sufficated in my house. My God, Cut the cord parents. Its getting a bit ridiculous that i'm 20 years old, they know where I am and how to get a hold of me and they want me home by 1am on a saturday night. I need my independence. I work a lot better when I'm given that and its hard for me to function properly with thtem breathing down my neck all of the time. Oh well. all in due time I suppose.

Well I think I'll pay a bit of attention now. Comments?

Just a thought before bed.

After 20 years I still have the same friends. I still have the same values and I still want the same things out of life. Is it determination or conformity? I like to think determination. I'm so happy with my life again. I didn't think I could find this happiness. I didn't think I could be so content. Things are falling into place. I'm looking at Graduating in April 2007. Getting my life started, seriously. I'm ready to be an adult and I'm ready to start with a real life. And I think I can finally do it.

Any thoughts?

You

The words have been drained from this pencil
Sweet words that I want to give you
And I can't sleep I need to tell you Goodnight
When we're together, I feel perfect
When I'm pulled away from you, I fall apart
All you say is sacred to me
Your eyes are so blue I can't look away
As we lay in the stillness
You whisper to me Amy, marry me
Promise you'll stay with me
Oh you don't have to ask me
You know you're all that I live for
You know I'd die just to hold you
Stay with you Somehow
I'll show you That you are my night sky
I've always been right behind you
Now I'll always be right beside you
So many nights I cried myself to sleep
Now that you love me, I love myself
I never thought I would say this
I never thought there'd be You

Please?

I'm being a sook and I had surgery today.. please do this and cheer me up.

Tell me one nice thing about me:
Who I remind you of:
The first thing that come to mind when you hear my name:
My best physical feature:
My worst physical feature:
The fondest memory you have of me:
A song that reminds you of me:
When did you meet me:
What was your first impression of me:
Have I changed your life:

My attempt at a real Blog

So here I am sitting in s study room with the Love of my life Aaron Critch and my lesbian Kayla kinda bored. Wasting time as I have to be here until sometime after 7 tonight. Damn work commitments. This semester has been insanely busy. 5 courses. 2 jobs. social life. volunteer work. deadpan. Craziness I say.

So what did this long weekend hold for me? Not a whole lot really. I seen Get Rich or Die trying on friday. That was a pretty hardcore movie. A lot better that I had expected it to be. Saturday I went shopping with my mother and father. Dear God I wanted to poke my eyes out with a pointy stick. Just because I stop to glace at the engament rings DOES NOT MEAN I'M GETTING MARRIED ANYTIME SOON.

Saturday night was Ashleighs party. I got stoned. Not on purpose, however, yeah i'll never mix cold medication and alcohol again. Good thing I have a super boyfriend to bring me home and put me to bed.

So lets have a little talk about the flu. which i am currently suffering massively from. This is how i figure it. I caught it from Aaron, who suffered mildly from a runny nose and what he liked to call that rudolph glow. then I, in turn suffered like a sonovabitch since friday. fever cough, runny nose, chills, mild nausea. NOw Darcy is vomiting plus all of my symtomns as well. this Flu virus is mutating wildly and it eventually going to wip out the human race as we know it.. and all i have to say about that is DAMN YOU AARON CRITCH!!!!!

On another note.. Scheduled for surgery at 12:00 tomorrow. Thank God. I'm not sure how much more of this incessant pain I can take. Three full days off! hot stuff. Movies and cuddles with my super duper boyfriend :) (Sorry Kurtis, I know another entry about my boyfriend.. what are you gonna do)

Smirnoff + Advil cold and sinus = Sudden Death

So.. new discovery. Advil and smirnoff do not mix. they knock you out and make you sicker than before. Last night was awesome though, I'm quite sad that i was in no physical state to enjoy it. sorry that i may have put a damper on the mood guys. You're all awesome. Thanks for being worried about my drunk/stoned ass.

So the last of the fab four are 20. What will this 20th year hold for all of us? Who knows! 19 was awesome.. lets see if we can top it! Love you girls!!!

I love Darcy

I have the bets boyufrifne d itn the whole world bevacie he loves me and takes care o me ahwne i'm sick and doesn't let me etthe etorbus after surgueys. He's so sweet and kind and caring adn he makes me feel slike i shoudl ebe loved, cos eveyoe else amd eme feel lieka buren to the, because i'm stiupd somthing and i dostudpi thisng. but he loevs me and i love him and that makes e happy cos he dint' break my haear and he posised that he would not leave me.


HAPY BITEHDAY ASHHHHHHHHHHH 2000000000 WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HEEEEEEEEEEEARTTTTTTTTT YAAAAAAAAAAAY BONEE FETE

Happy (belated) Birthday to me!

So its Monday morning. I had the most amazing weekend ever. Ever! Best birthday i could possibly imagine. actually, no, I don't think i could have imagined a birthday that great.

I stayed up on thusday night so I wouldn't miss my birthday and got like 12 messages from people at exactly midnight wishing me happy birthday along with a chat on the phone with darcy and and a song from Kayla.

Woke up on friday morning and had breakfast with my daddy then went to school where at 12:00 Darcy surprised me when i was supposed to go to work. He told Zoiey to tell me i had to go to work so he could give me my present there. I got a pink unicorn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The one i was in love with from bears and cheers that i used to visit at the mall!! and he had it in a disney princess bag with a disney princess balloon! it was awesome i was soo excited! then we headed down to the breezeway and started drinking with Kayla, Murrdogg, Matt, Aaron, Beet, Chris M and Brian! I had two beer there and had a great laugh.. beer flavoured! haha so then we all decided we were going to go to Jungle Jims for lunch wheer I had another drink ( i was pretty tipsy before 3 o'clock pretty sad hehe) then we brough those crazy folks back to the Goulds and me and Darcy went to his place for a bit. Thats not for blog so we'll skip that part ;) Then we went to my house and had birthday cake with my parents and my sister gave me a pair of boots that light up!! they're awesome!

Around 8 o'clock people started to arrive for the prime at my house. My girls showed up and gave me awesome presents. Kayla gave me the most comfy Pj's ever. Murrdogg gave me a really pretty bangle that i have yet to take off lol Ash gave me an awesome shirt with a half zip up hoodie to go over it. and Darcy gave me the "what happens on george st stays on george st" tee shirt that i was in love with! Then the drinking began and everything gets a lil sketchy.. heres a point form of what i remember

• Help Me Rhonda
• Grabbing everyones boobs and getting pictures of it
• Dancing with kayla to the NKOTB birthday song and Darcy cutting in
• "Did you have sex with my friend?"
• Vaguely the van ride
• Losing Darcy
• Tequila friend!
• Rhonda:"excuse me Mr. Hot dog Man, I would like a hot dog please"

Hot Dog Man: Regular Jumbo or saussage

Kayla: Regular! Jesus she's a vegetarian!!

• Subway lady and my birthday
• 3 phone calls to Darcy, same conversation

On another note about the subway.. i put on my jacket this morning and found part of my sub wrapped up in one pocket and a cookie in the other. Kind of gross. haha Nice. anyway in short I had the most awesome birthday ever. I love my friends and I love my boyfriend! Awesome Awesome Awesome weekend!! <3

COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!!

My most awesome boyfriend/ 4 sleeps!

Me and Boyfriend
He's being Cute
I'm being.. me. :P



4 more sleeps until I leave my teen years behind me. Wow. I never thought of it that way. Damn. Way to start of this entry on a high note Rhonda. Anyway as the plan stands right now we'll be priming at my house, hopefully, then heading downtown, unless someone has a better idea on where to prime. We'll also be heading to the breezeway at 12:00 on friday for le beer pour ma fete. All are welcome to join me, as Im super cool . I dunno I have a feeling this birthday isn't going to be as great as last year. Rather anti climatic, I hope i'm wrong.

Anyway as for the real reason why I wrote this entry I wanted to brag about how awesome my boyfriend is. He did the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me tonight. The story actually starts a little before hand when I came home from school in a horrible mood due to my horrible day. Anyhoo so i come home and decide I'm gonna call Darcy to see if he can cheer me up, which he does because he's awesome. And he lets me go so I can go to work. Half way through worl Darcy walks into my drama class gives me a rose and a chocolate bar kisses me and leaves. And i have to chase him up the stairs when i finally comprehend what just happend and he tells me he couldn't have my birthday week start off bad and he had to cheer me up! is that not thesweetest thing you've ever heard? <3 align="center">

Anyway As for the rest of my weekend in reveiw..

- Friday I spent the day with Darcy. He took me to the doctor and we went to walmart

we watched Batman. Not a bad movie.

- Saturday was leader forum

- I planted trees... IN THE DIRT (stay tuned for pics)

- Went to fog City for supper

- Seen a movie that was just a headache on screen (Stay)

- Tims with Girls+Aaron Last nigth

Anyhoo thats all for now

Peace and Blessings!

9 Days to my Birthday! ( Just in case you forgot)

Today is wednesday.. did I ever mention how much I hate wednesdays? I thought so.

Today was a comme ci comme ca day. I killed all the tests I got back. I kicked schools butt for sure. I'm not really sure how it is I'm pulling off the marks I've gotten this semester, as I've done less work this semester than any other. However I hope I keep this up. Three tests back today, yep, hot stuff.

I went to see Dr. Batten today. Surgery again. You know what that means right!? TWO DAYS OFF!!! WOOOOO!! *happy dance* however the fact that I can't hear and am in pain, sucks moose testicle.

Going to see Dr. Wang on friday too. Love that woman she's so cute. she's gotta get over her obession with setting me up with her son though. I have a superdupertremendoussplendiferous boyfriend who GOT BILL GREGORY'S AUTOGRAPH for me *heart* :-)

In other news... I don't really have any. haha Laters!

Peace and Blessings!

Sitting here in the UC

Kinda bored. Everyone left me so I'm just chilling out here alone. I have to work today from 10-2. Kinda sucks seeing as how I don't have class today and I was out super late last night. I'm really tired and I have the first rehersal for the Full Monty tonight. I sure would like ot have a nap. I slept the whole way here ( Raylene drove). I have to get the bus home today too. That really sucks. I got the bus home yesterday. I'm not so impressed with that. Hopefully there will be someone on the quarantine bus with me.

So in the News.. hmm .. what has happened since my last entry.. I don't even remember. ohh. Tuesday Darcy took me to DQ. I Sure do love DQ. It made me really happy. and Last night we went to cape spear until after 12. tis the reason I'm so super tired. I'm sure this will be one heck of a productive day today at work. Ugh. anyone wanna set up a booth at the volunteer fair? lol there .. see I work!

So the plans for this weekend are as follows.. Tomorrow night Masterless Men.. Saturday night.. ugghh... ummm.. nothing. Sunday.. nothing. Yep. Exciting weekend coming up indeed.

anyhoo I really have nothing too interesting to write. So..

Peace and Blessings!

This week

So its been an eventful week. Last two shows of the birdcage, Thank God thats over. Loved it but i was sick of it. readyto move onto something new and exciting. so after Friday nights show we all headed to Janets for a lovely social gathering.. and by social gathering i mean drinkfest. I had an awesome time there. Darcy and I aimed to corupt the minds of the younger generation, it was awesome. Left Janets around 2 and went for a drive with Darcy :) where he asked me to be his girlfriend :) of course I said yes. He's awesome! we have so much in common and I feel like i could talk to him for hours about everything and anything. he's so interesting.

So on saturday afternoon I got to see Beauty and the Beast. So i maintained my excitment in the theatre.. however inside i was screaming a jumping up and down and going insane. i mean it was Beauty and the Beast! ahh. Belle's pretty yellow dress looked exactly like the one from the disney movie.. i want it. and the music was just fabulous. Gaston couldn't carry a note in a bucket but the rest of the cast were awesome. *sigh* i sure do love Beauty and the Beast.

Today i went shopping for something for murrdogg then we ( Murr, Kayla, Ashleigh, myself steven and Darcy) went out to jungle jims for supper. it was awesome. went to Adam boyles house after for a bit then i went to Darcy's and hung out for a bit before coming home.

So, so far this has been an awesome midterm break. two days left and I'm sure they'll be just as great. Its so awesome to feel wanted again and be happy with where I am :)

This week

So its been an eventful week. Last two shows of the birdcage, Thank God thats over. Loved it but i was sick of it. readyto move onto something new and exciting. so after Friday nights show we all headed to Janets for a lovely social gathering.. and by social gathering i mean drinkfest. I had an awesome time there. Darcy and I aimed to corupt the minds of the younger generation, it was awesome. Left Janets around 2 and went for a drive with Darcy :) where he asked me to be his girlfriend :) of course I said yes. He's awesome! we have so much in common and I feel like i could talk to him for hours about everything and anything. he's so interesting.

So on saturday afternoon I got to see Beauty and the Beast. So i maintained my excitment in the theatre.. however inside i was screaming a jumping up and down and going insane. i mean it was Beauty and the Beast! ahh. Belle's pretty yellow dress looked exactly like the one from the disney movie.. i want it. and the music was just fabulous. Gaston couldn't carry a note in a bucket but the rest of the cast were awesome. *sigh* i sure do love Beauty and the Beast.

Today i went shopping for something for murrdogg then we ( Murr, Kayla, Ashleigh, myself steven and Darcy) went out to jungle jims for supper. it was awesome. went to Adam boyles house after for a bit then i went to Darcy's and hung out for a bit before coming home.

So, so far this has been an awesome midterm break. two days left and I'm sure they'll be just as great. Its so awesome to feel wanted again and be happy with where I am :)

In avoidence of study..

I decided I should update my much neglected blog. Things have been going amazingly well with me. School has been super crazy, i've had 4 midterms in the past week. Been studying hard, keeping up with it though, its lucky thing I'm a smart girl. I've been working a bit too. Really liking my job at the SVB despite the fact I've only worked 2 shifts so far. Seems to be fun and i love the type of work i'm doing there so I think its going to be an awesome semester with an awesome group of people

So major event of the week: Kaylas Party. I wish I could tell you more of what happened there but honestly I was much to drunk to remember most of it. I know i had a great time though, i took my camera and got over 90 pictures so I have a good idea of how my night went. Darcy came with me and he got to meet all my friends, which is excellent. I think they really like him. I know my parents sure did. They haven't stopped asking about him since. I'm really glad as I was pretty worried about what they'd think. SO i may have stretched the truth about him just a lil bit.. is that such a bad thing if my happiness is at stake? ;)

In other news I discovered today that the Birdcage has sold out BOTH of its encore nights at the LSPU two days before the show! Thats amazing! I am soo proud of Deadpan Alley and all that it has acomplished this year. I am soo glad I'm a part of such a great group of people. Especially when these people will have a Deanpan Chant in the middle of Kaylas living room when Don O'Keefe shows up.. ahh fun times.

Anyway this has been my break from the depressing book "the killing of Bonnie Garland" and now I must get back to explaining why such a sick psychopathic killer got away with Manslaughter for bashing his sleeping girlfriends head in with a claw hammer. Have a wonderful day all .. *muuuah*

Peace and Blessings

Edit: So appearantly our shows are not COMPLETELY sold out but pretty close so you guys should get your tickets now! Don't miss out!!

Article from the MUSE

The Birdcage returns after sellout shows
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The Birdcage
Starring Chris Downey, Chris Mercer, and Jeremy Viera
Deadpan Alley
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It's a testament to the quality of local theatre when hopeful patrons are turned down at the door. A St. John's socialite couple were sent away from the LSPU Hall after waiting in line for tickets to Deadpan Alley's latest - a roaring, sensational production of The Birdcage, directed by Janet K. Graham. I couldn't blame the couple for arriving 15 minutes before the curtain lifted: Who knew a show with more drag than the Clarenville Strip could sell out - twice?

A revision of the hilarious 1996 movie starring Robin Williams and Nathan Lane (itself a remake of the French film and play La Cage Aux Folles), The Birdcage is a raucous tale of gay couple Armand (Chris Downey) and Albert (Chris Mercer) - one a club owner, the other it's sensational star. Throughout the play, they go to great lengths to help their straight son Val marry the girl of his dreams, Barbara, whose father is the candy-loving, God-fearing Senator Keeley (a man so conservative he probably wears everything to the right).

Spilt into two chapters, the play explodes in a series of hilarious set pieces detailing every step of Albert's and Armand's charade to convince the senator and his wife that Val is worthy of marriage by pulling the ultimate con - going straight. Cue the hijinx as Armand and Albert stumble towards a resolution that will have you laughing, even if you've seen the movie before.

If a good play rests on the strength of its actors, The Birdcage deserves to be sold out repeatedly. Comic timing, sudden pratfalls, and coy self-reference are just the beginning here; special mention goes to the actors playing the over-the-top but lovable Albert and the faithful manservant Agador (Jeremy Viera).Mercer's Albert is the catalyst for most of the play's humour, as he hams up the effeminate starlet to great effect. Swooning along to every new plot twist, Albert is more drama than drag queen, but the audience wouldn't want it any other way. As the bouncy butler of the couple, Viera comes dangerously close to stealing the show from the talented cast.

The end left me with only one complaint: It was over too quickly. The charaters had endeared themselves into the audience's hearts, and it was a disappointment to see a close to the fancy song numbers and the creatively fab costumes. This was a shared feeling, as Deadpan Alley are now putting off two additional shows in response to the fantastic ticket sales. If you missed the show the first time, here's your chance to catch it again.Deadpan Alley's production of The Birdcage at the LSPU Hall returns Oct. 6 and 7. Showtime is 8:00 p.m. Tickets are $12 at the door, and are also available in advance at the LSPU box office.

Amazing weekend.

So I had.. well as the title says.. an Amazing weekend. Wonder why? You should know! .. hmm so this is what it feels like to be happy again.. *smile*.. *looks around*.. *huge smile*

That is all...






*big smile*

This week in the life of Ru..

So who remembers Zoiey Cobb? Turns out I'm going to be working with her! I got offered, and accepted, the MUCEP position as Program Assistant at the SVB ( Student Volunteer Bureau) yesterday and I must say I'm pretty damn excited about it. This is an amazing oppertunity for me and I'm really excited to get started, meet new people and be excited about work again. I love working.

In other news, the held over show went amazingly well and Janet decided that we will come back in two or three weeks time and do another multi-night run of either 2 or 3 nights. This is sooo amazing. I love Deadpan! hehe

So other than the new job, deadpan on its way to broadway.. or Gander (haha) and my amazing sleep deprivation there isn't really much more for me to say. My life since school started has been Class, Deadpan, sleep, and really not too much of the latter. Been getting to hang out with my friends at school a lil bit but other than that I haven't seen most people in ages. I'm begining to forget what Ashleigh looks like and that makes me sad :( . But all is good, Huge party next weekend. I shant know my name by the end of the night, it will be fun times. 98 3/4 percent guaranteed!

Peace and Blessings!

I cannot express in words..

..how proud I am of Deadpan Alley right now. This weekend has been amazing for all of us. Friday nights show was amazing. We did awesome. However none of us expected what happened last night. Not only are we the first new group to sell out, we're the first group ever to sell out before the box office even opened! It may not sound like a big deal to everyone else but to us at Deadpan .. ITS HUGE!! And the show was an amazing success. I mean the reveiws aren't out yet, but even if they aren't great, who cares?! its one persons opinion on paper, The audience last night LOVED the show. Everybody had nothing but good things to say to us :)
Kayla, Murrdogg and Darcy got to go! as well as my sister and my dad. My daddy was so proud of me! And yes.. I am a daddy's girl.
After the show last night we went to Tim Hortons and Darcy came along. That made me really happy. He's my favorite. I've never met someone who makes me laugh so hard!
So what am I doing tonight you ask.,? why OUR SHOW GOT HELD OVER! We're doing another show tonight with the possibility of another three night run in three weeks time! This is soo amazing! I could have never asked to be involved with a greater group of people for this. people who deserve it soo soo much! So .. EVERYONE GO TO THE SHOW TONIGHT 8PM CURTAIN AT THE LSPU HALL!!!!!!!!

PEACE AND BLESSINGS!

New title!

So I've decided to Change the title of my blog to something a little more fitting than what it had been. Although I liked the title "Some Kind of Miracle" It just hadn't been right. So now I'm titled "Story About a Girl" as this blog as somewhat become the Story of me, who just happens to have a vagina. Imagine the possibilites ;)

Anyway, so I had a pretty boring weekend. Was at the Breezeway on friday with Janine and two new friends of ours, Chris and Dennis. It was really fun. However it was really loud there and I'm sad to say I missed most of the nights conversation. Its getting really frustrating to me how bad my hearing has gotten just over the past year. I think its time I stop cheating on my hearing tests and owning up to the fact that I need help.

Saturday.. hmm what did I do saturday.. RIGHT! I went to see the Exorcism of Emily Rose with Darcy. It was a good movie but nothing at all like what I had expected. Well at least I didn't cry! Then I finally got to get DQ after a week of waiting for it I got my DQ! It was awesome! I ate like half ofa sundae! I'm an animal! Then saturday night I was forced into going to my aunts birthday party / going away party for my cousin. Ive decided I either need to start going to family functions or stop all together. Two of my first cousins tried to pick me up, not recognizing who I was. Then I had half of the family tell me how fat I was, the other half telling me i was too skinny and all of them picking on me for being single, and asking where stefan was. WE BROKE UP OVER A YEAR AGO!!!! GET OVER IT!! *hehe*

Yesterday did a lil family trip out to town and then worked Bingo last night. Nothing overly exciting. So all in all it was a pretty boring weekend. Hopefully this weekend coming will be much more exciting What with The Birdcage that everyone is going to attend either friday night at the parish hall at 8:00 for $8 admission or Monday night at the LSPU hall for $12 admission It should be fun times :) Anyway I'm off to nap or something before I have to reherse or something again.

Peace and Blessings

Back to school - Back to life.

So here I am. Laying on my bed. Yesterday was my first day back to MUN. I love MUN. I really do. There are so many nice people to meet out there. I spent all of Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday at orientation. Let me tell you being an orientation leader is MUCH more fun than being a first year. Holy poo.

Sunday was training. Me and Janine headed out there around 9ish. realized we knew next to nobody. That was fine we had eachother. We quickly learned that we had to dance. Thats right. I had to dance. The OV (orientation Volunteer) Boogie. Needless to say I was a lil scary. So we all lined up so that we spelled out MUN. And in this formation we met the man who became known as M, as we met him in the M. he was a really nice guy so he became our friend. Then M introduced us to Chris. Chris was a cool fellow indeed. So we finish training go home fine and dandy.
Monday I got to know a guy named Darcy. He was one of the POA's and reminded me a lot of my friend terry ( I know you don't like that but too bad he did! its not a bad thing) so we hung out most of Monday night at the breezeway. On Monday I also got the pleasure of getting to dance the OV boogie on the News. Right in front of the camera the whole time. dancing right next to the dean. I had to catch her when she fell. It was awesome. I also danced ballroom style in front of 2000 people. Just me and Sammy Seahawk. Its a really good thing i'm not shy. Haha

Tuesday was more fun times. Campus tour. Luncheon and again some more OV boogie. Got some people to sign my shirt. haha I never thought I could find someone with a dirtier mind than myself, Then I found Darcy. He's my hero lol and said goodbye to the first years

Yesterday was my first day of class. I had English 2390 first. My prof is frigging crazy. she seems like a bit of a bitch to me. My English 2000 prof was Michael Nolan. I had him for 1101 and I really liked him. So I was Pleased. My 2002 prof seems a lil off the wall but I think the course should be a breeze. Religous institutions I'm not so sure about. The prof seems nice enough but I hink its gonna be a lil boring. War And Aggression I had last night. the Prof is nuts. but in a good way. He is the world leader in his feild and had no issues with bragging that to us. He studies murders and serial killers for a living, you have to expect him to be a lil crazy. I only had one class with people I knew in it. Kim and Tabitha are in 2002 with me so it should be fun times.

I don't have classes on tuesday or thursday so thats pretty awesome. I have rehersal tonight at 6 and i'm pretty sure every night next week . We have reporters coming in to the rehersals from the Telegram. the Muse. Coast 101.1 and CBC. Looks like this producion is going to be a hit.. and I FINALLY GOT TO REHERSE! woo! Anyway I'm out to rest up a bit before I have to go!



Peace and Blessings!

The week to end all weeks.

It has been an absolutely amazing week. It started last saturday night right up to this friday night. An amazing way to end an amazing summer.

So last saturday night I went to Haydens BBQ with kayla and Tony. it was fun times. I was really drunk. Highlights include Nicole ( my boss) seeing my stumble down the road and getting stuck in Haydens bathroom and getting rescued by his mom. We stayed at Haydens for a lil bit then we went to kaylas then me and Tony Hung out at the park for a lil while. It was fun times indeed.

Sunday night was a girls night turned night out with Tony as well. Me and the girls went to Tims then back to Kaylas where Tony joined us. Ashleigh and I completely defaced a newspaper and then we left. Tony and I walked Ashleigh home then went for a lil stroll around the Goulds. We went to the old softball feild behind the town hall however he was too scared to stay so we had to leave, however, upon leaving we ran into Hayden and Ches, and while talking to them heather drove up fresh off the plane from New jersey. It was a very random place to meet such people, especially since it was 1:30 in the morning.

Monday I know I finished my last day at work. Cleaned out my office and the like. Then I went and picked up a few things I needed for school and hun g out with Tony for a bit before He had to go to work. I'm not exactly sure what happened that night.. hmm. However I know I was out really late because....

Tuesday morning I had to get up early to go do testing with Val for some research she's doing for some Psychology board. They're trying to develop and accurate test of non verbal intelligence. So basically what that entailed was I say down for an hour with Val and got to play with puzzles and got paid 20$ for doing so. It was awesome. After that I went out to school to pay my tuition and scope out the new classes and the like. Ate some pizza. looked around the book store. That was fun too. Tuesday was also a rehersal night so I went there and came home and got some much needed sleep.

Wednesday/Thursday were most definatly the highlights of the week though. Wednesday the girls all packed into kaylas Van and headed to portigal cove south. Now we made a pact, what happens in Portugal cove south, stays in portugal cove south. however I can't leave you wanting more like that. I'll give yousmall tidbits such as. Terry is actually spelled Turrie, Andrew's name is not anthony and he does not have a twin brother and neaked sexy shore boys are very persistant. Right Murr? haha Most definatley hands down the best night of the entire summer. I drank and entire flask of vodka and woke up feeling fine. :) Thursday I also got to drive Kaylas Van in trepassey, which was awesomely funy because i didn't know how to change gears in it and I was MUCH to short to drive it. haha.

Friday night (last night) Kayla, Murr, Aaron and Courtney (Beet) all went downtown. We primed here at my house and Kaylas mom drove us down around 12. Eddie O'keefe met us down there (haha He told me i was really sexy and he could stare into my eyes all night. I wonder if he has any wine to go with that cheese) . We ran into a lot of random people. I ran into my husband and gave him hugs, I seen my friend Kurtis who I hadn't seen in forever. Discovered that Murr is friends with Some random guy I have on my msn list so I got to meet him in person. It wasn't the greatest night downtown but it was pretty awesome all the same! I mean I got to go downtown with Aaron Critch! woo haha

And thus ends my most awesome week. It was the perfect way to end such a roller coaster of a summer. now COMMENT! haha

Summer Review

Its been a very interesting summer to say the least. Not exciting per say, but very eye opening in the sense that I survived. My fist summer totally and completely alone.. and I lived. I'm not saying it was easy. It was a huge adjustment for me. This summer was just overall completely different from anything I've ever had to do. Its just that everything changed. Everything was just slightly different enough to throw me off course there for awhile. I got a promotion, which was amazing but also a lot of hard work. People really misunderstood my roll that I had there and it made communication difficult so it seems. However, as far as my job goes I was very please with how my summer went. Hightlights from work include:
- The treasure hunt (haha come on guys it wasn't that bad)
- Day Camp Idol
- Green Koolaid
- Kangaroo Kourt
- Hunting the mess fairy
- Solving the case of the misaimed pee
- Johnny hehe
- Wasting lots of time at salmoneir nature park
- Janie's party
- Dickie being such a good sport ( I love you kiddo)
- Cleaning poop haha
- Tent city and the sighting of the sasquatch
- Not being PJ! haha sorry buddy!

And those are just some of them. I really do honestly and truthfully love my job :)

So on the non-work related end of the summer things were a lil different. Yeah I admit it. I was unhappy. My only saviours were really my girls and rehersing for The Birdcage *coughplugcough*. Sunday nights were always amazing. There is nothing I would not do for my girls. You are honestly the best thing I have in my life, and sometimes my only reason I feel at the time to get up in the morning. You make life worth it. I know I've said it a hundred times, but it was so hard for me to come home and not hear someone say "I've missed you, did you have a nice day" and kiss me. Being loved is something I really miss. And i will never deny that. But I realized tonight when thinking about writing this blog that I'm going to be 20 in two months (from yesterday btw hehe) I need to stop my whining and bitching. Yes ok, I can't have who I want. That isn't the end of the world. I'm distracting myself so much with what I can't have that I'm probably missing a whole bunch of great things that I could have. And it really breaks my heart to admit I'm really ready to move on now. I feel guilty about it. I do. But this summer has made me realize that I'm worth it. And it was his loss (yes I know you're reading this and I am sober this time) So yes it kills me, and yes it still hurts every single day. But I don't need that. I'm missing too much. I'm going to move on. Slowly. I really don't want to rush anything. But 20 is when people start to calm down. Start seriously becoming who you are going to be for the rest of your life. I don't need that extra stress in my life. I don't need the uncertainty of it all. I don't need second guessing. I need stability. I'm not going to run from anything that scares me anymore. Thats what cowards do. Jimmy told me a long time ago to seize life with both hands, and picture myself as a cup and love as water. If you just pour the water around you're left with an empty cup. You have to fill the cup and let it over flow first. And it took me 4 years to get what he meant for real. But Jimmy this summer put into action what you tried to teach me on the rooftop that night. It takes a small person to make someone feel small. No matter what they do. So I survived my summer alone. And its time for me to get my life back in order. Back to school. Back to life. Back to everything thats normal. I'm already gone.

Peace and Blessings!

So here I am. Its 11:09 and I've just settled myself on my bed after getting home from my *LONG* Day of work (7am-10pm). Today was the final day of our summer programs, the much anticipated Bidgoods Summer Blast. Basically in a nutshell the day is 300 children, 40 Staff, 5 Buses, 4 Venues, and 1 responsibility, on me. It actually went REALLY well and i'm so freaking impressed with myself, honestly. I had soo many people commend me on how well it was organized and how smoothly it ran. I didn't get not one complaint from anyone that really mattered. For those of you who don't really know what the Summer Blast is, we take 300 kids and take them to a movie at studio 12, swimming at the aquarena have a bbq and then have a dance. Its absolute madness. It was my first year actually organizing the event, but the 4th year I've done it.

Overall my summer was excellent. I thought it was a really awesome experience for me at such a young age ( in ocmparison to all past co ordinators) to have such a great oppertunity at this job. I'm only 19 years old and I was given a pretty big responsibilty. I'm really glad that the board, despite their hesitation in giving me this job, chose me. I know now i can trust myself to make good decisions, that I am responsible, i can organize and I am a good leader. and despite the fact that i barely had time to breathe in the last three months working in this position this year has actually made me that much more mature, and that much more capable of dealing with great work related stress, deadlines and presentation. It may sound dorky, but this summer has really changed me. I really do believe in my abilities, especially after today.


I never would have done so well without my awesome staff ( see picture above) though. so in no particular order THANK YOU : Joanne, Jill, Sam, Jess, Kim, Raylene, Janie, Chris, Dickie, Michael, Hammond, Kerri, Ryan, Jeff, Stephen, Aaron and Josh!! You guys are absolutely amazing. So helpful and so ready to take on the world all of the time. Also Big thanks to Brenda,
Randy and Nicole. We make a great team. Hope we get to do it again next year!

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Yep.. I was right. Kicking myself for that one. Continue on about your buisness like it never happened. La La La I attribute the former post to this...

Charlie Lacosta.

I've been thinking a lot about Charlie lately, I'm not really sure why. Anytime I go anywhere I find myself secretly hoping I run into him. Just wanting to run up to him and say " OH My God! Chuck!". I wonder if he even remembers me..? I don't think there is a day that goes by that I don't think about him.

For those of you who don't know Charlie used to be one of my very best friends back in grade 9. I really truly believed the sun shone out of his rear, and i probably would have jumped over the moon for him if i thought it would make him happy. we spent an entire summer together. Every day, he'd ride his bike in from Prescott street just to see me. I think maybe if there is such a thing as a friendship soulmate, he would be mine.

Its been three years since I've seen him , three years! thats a really long time. And I miss him soo terribly. I shared so much with him and I told him absolutely everything, and because he screwed up his life, I lost him, against my will we slowly stopped talking, phone calls went from once a day, to once a week , once a month, once every 6 months and now , not call in a year, and with the path he was headed down, I really don't know if he's alive or dead. I know people have seen him , and those people weren't me. Its sad to see someone throw away their life like that. He was a smart boy with such great potential. he was and i know still is a beautiful person, inside and out. Charlie knew the real me, and i really think i knew the real Charlie. I bared my soul to him and he to me. and now we have nothing, he probably wouldn't even know me if he seen me. Its hard to go from such close friends to strangers, especially under the circumsatnces that we did, and its in times like the ones i've been having lately that I miss him the most. When i kno he would make me feel better and safe a secure again... Charlie if you're out there.. I need you..


Peace and Blessings

I told you so...

So true to my word I'm trying hard to write more often. I had a pretty shitty weekend overall. Went to the family reunion on saturday. It was an ok time. I got pretty drunk bt ended up home in bed by 11 yet again. Most of my cousins have small children so we drank early and finished early as welll. My mom owned the horse shoe tournament as per usual. Kinda missed having stefan there though. Not the same without him, but we all know that was for the best. Sunday again I sat home most of the day and went to a movie with Jason, Kayla and that guy last night. we saw wedding crashers. It was ok. I wasn't overly impressed but it was pretty funny.

So in other news I was reading Aarons BK journal last night and he was talking about al these old memories he had of growing up in the Goulds and it got me to thinking about some of the ones that I have. Remember all of those summer nights we spent on the sidewalk on Boland St? Watching Chubbs and Dennis skateboard. Having those crazy assed run ins with the "grade 8's"
How about selling shells on the side of the road. Me and ash used to do that for hours on end. How about all those nights spent in the park right after me and stefan started dating "stop making babies!" chilling out on the monkey bars just watching starts and being young *sigh* I miss those days, I miss not having to worry about paper work, or GPA's or finals exams and STI's. Life was so freaking simple, back when a month in a relationship was forever and making out meant you got with someone. I really wish we could just all get together for one night of just absolute foolishness. forget about work and school and relationships or lack there of. I'm only 20 and I already miss my youth. I grew up way too fast for my liking. Thats what i get for jumping into things that no 15 year old is ready for I suppose. Not that I would ever change my past, not for a million dollars, its just the curse of what ifs.

I was talking to Stefan last night and he was completely right in saying I haven't been myself in a long time. I really have no idea why i've been acting the way I have been. I don't really have an excuse. I'm just, I have no idea. Its not depressed because i'm still happy. its just I don't know who I am anymore because "me" as the happy person with lots of friends out having a good time feeling good about herself has always included another person, and now for the first time since I found that "me" I don't have another person to share it with. Its strange and unusual and I still haven't found a way to do it properly after 6 months. Its really hard. But like i've said before. I'll do it. I'm strong and now i just have to work on the independant part. I'll be ok. I always am.

Anyhoo I have a meeting to get ready for. People to see events to organize and gosh and golly gee I hope some more paper work to do. Goodnight people. And don't forget to comment. I've been feeling neglected.

Here I am again

The will be my first "real"post in a while. I've been super busy with lots of super cool things to do, what with work and rehersals and all I barely get time for myself anymore. Which explains why I am here in my underroos in bed at 11pm on a friday night. I sometimes just enjoy getting to spend the night by myself and just relaxing. I had another one of those very stressful weeks so its nice to just sit here and not really worry about anything

So exciting news for the week, Well Janie ( the girl from Quebec who was working for me for 6 weeks) finished up at work today, we had a surprise party for her yesterday. I took her out to pick things up with me in the morning for the sleepover next week and while we were gone the kids decorated the gym. I was absolutely amazed at how pretty they made it in only two hors with some construction paper and tape. Its was really pretty. They did it in a hawaiian theme. She seemed really surprised and loved the gifts we gave her. The kids all signed a newfoundland flag and made cards for her and we also bought her a necklace and pendant made from labradorite in the shape of a puffin. It was really pretty. And I made her a dvd slide show of her summer she spent with us with lots of cute and funny pictures of the summer. I think she really enjoyed it.

As well, we went on a boat tour today. and as coordinator i took on the ruling task of taking two different boat tours today and enjoying the beautiful sun and ocean for four and a half hours. Its a tough job but someone has to do it. It was a nice way to end a tough week. next week however will be brutal. our special event s a sleepover and i'm working on reviving the old rec centre tradition of Kangaroo Kourt, which is proving to be a somewhat difficult task. However I am determined to revive said tradition to make the summer more fun like the ones I used to have way back in the day.

On another note I realized today that I'm going to be 20 very very soon. Thats insane. I mean it seems as if i just turned 19, and now here I am staring the barrel of 20. where does time go? Its been a tough year, but as I discovered the other day it actually contained the happiest moment of my lif thus far to date that I can remember. Someone asked me the other day if I could pinpoint the happiest moment of my life that i've lived so far. and I took a really long time to think about it. like hard and serious, and it may shock some people to know what I came up with.. Midnight of new years eve. I really can't remember being so pefectly happy as I was at that moment. I had everything I felt I wanted and needed and I was just so perfectly happy. But like all things real, good things must come to an end and thats over now, Im just very glad I got to enjoy that moment of shear bliss. I know some people aen't so fortunate as to ever experience that feeling that I had, and for that I'm very thankful. I think growing up is supposed to be tough. I think your'e supposed to jump from insanely happy to insanely depressed so easily so you can really experience what "grown up" life is about. because I think lifes moral really could be shit happens , but so does magic. you just have to be prepared. I don't mean to become so philosopical but people this really is what life is all about, its about living. its about gathering experiences, learning and appreciating things for what they are and what they offer. If you can;t take a lesson from a situation be it good or bad I don't think you're really living at all. EVERYTHING happens for a reason, and life is finding that reason.

This has actually become a bit of a long winded entry. But thats ok. I think its best I start wrting here more again. Its been too hard keeping my thoughts bottled up. anyway I'm going to get some beauty sleep, The Bavis Family reunion is tomorrow and I want to look my best. Have a wonderful night everyone. God Bless

Peace and Blessings
Rhonda

More pics

So here's the deal

I had the best day I've prolly had in a very long time yesterday. I got to go to Renews. The one place where I know I have nothing to worry about and i can feel completely free and relaxed and just not stress over anything anymore. It was one of the most beautiful days I remember being there in a long time, and lucky for you guys I brought my camera, so here's a lil treat for the eyes.

Quizzy thing. Make me happy and do it in my comments!

I stole a quiz from Rebecca
Three names you go by:
~ Rhonda
~ Ru
~ Rhondu

Three things you like about yourself:
~ My butt.
~ That I never get really angry
~ The choices I've made thus far

Three things you dislike about yourself:
~ That I don't like being alone
~ my insecurity
~ that i'm so soft hearted

Three parts of your heritage:
~ Irish
~ English
~ Newfoundlander

Three things that scare you:
~ people who pretend their going to hit me
~ Havng my heart broken again
~ Not having kids

Three of your everyday essentials:
~ A shower
~ my purse/wallet
~ friends!

Three things you are wearing right now:
~ tank top
~ Jeans
~ Livestrong

Three of your favorite songs at present:
~ When I see you smile
~ There were Roses
~ Wild is the wind

Three new things you want to try in the next 12 months:
~ English society
~ dancing
~ dating?

Two truths and a lie:
~ I really have to pee right now
~ I'm absolutely terrified of this production
~ I love cheese

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
~ Smile
~ Smell (is that physical?)
~ Eyes

Three things you can't do at the moment:
~ Tell people how I really feel
~ Be who I want to be
~ Run away

Three of your favorite hobbies:
~ Singing
~ Acting
~ Scrapbooking

Three things you really want to do right now:
~ Help a friend who needs it badly
~ Kiss someone
~ Tell that same someone how I feel

Three careers you are considering:
~ Public Relations
~ ^^
~ ^

Three places you want to go on vacation:
~ London
~ Vancouver
~ Cairo

Three kids names:
~ Charleigh Allanaugh
~ Maurita Alice
~ Penelleopea Alexandera
~ and I'm adding a fourth because i'm having four kids Jakub Noah

Three things you want to do before you die:
~ Have children
~ Marry a man who loves me as much as i love him
~ make someone so happy they cry

The week from hell.

I've had the worst week imaginable. There are certain things you never want to hear when you're working with Children and i'm pretty sure I've heard every one of them this week. For legal reasons I can't go into detail here , or with anyone really and that really eats me up inside. Its just one of those things you want to tell people and it it off your chest but you know you can't. And its just eating me from the inside out. in my four years at this job I haven't heard anything remotely like what i heard this week. Its tough. I'm nineteen years old with all this responsibility and i really have to strive to prove myself. Being a perfectionist is stressful. I am not complaining about my job. I love my job I just dislike the circumstances under which I had to work this week, and My relaxing weekend isn't really working out to be all that relaxing at all. I really cant wait to get back to school. At least I know I'm good at school and I only have myself to please or displease. At work there are just so many people breathing down my neck and depending on me. Its crazy. I love it but its getting to me a little. Thankfully I have wednesday off and I decided to take thursday morning off as well. I'm gonna go out wednesday night after the regatta and have a good time. I need to just stop thinking about work and the other stresser in my life just for a lil while and focus on having a good time. not thinking about what I have to do tomorrow at work .
Besides work there really isn't much else for me to talk about. As you have probably gathered it almost consumes my life. the only other tidbit I can think to mention is that painted my room really bnright pink this week, thats pretty hardcore. So i'm off to find something to do. A word to the wise: Redbull before bed is never a good idea.

Peace and Blessings

Remember when..

I used to use this blog thing to talk about how insanely happy I was and how I had not a care in the world.. *sigh* how those were the days.. I talked, earlier in a BK journal entry, about how i didn't understand how I could be so drastically different from high school and still feel like the exact same person. In high school I felt ingnored and rejected from most people, aside from my small group of friends, now its like everyone has some use for me and needs me to be there for them right now. I have so many people pulling me in so many different directions all the time and I really have no idea which way to go. I'm begining to think most of my goals I have set for my sel, i'm not going to be able to obtain. So what do I do? The easiest way is not always the best way, I know, but is it ok for me to take the easy way out once in my life? just not prevent myself from further complicating my situations. Just go with the flow and hope everything works out? or should I continue to fight for what I truly want like I always do and most likely end up disappointed and hurt? I know I'm strong. I am a very strong person. I never would have gotten through half of the things I did without being strong, but it was only one straw that broke the camels back, right? how do I know it won't be the next one that does it for me? Life really terrifys me. Why is life so full of impossible questions... "whats the meaning of life?".." Why don't you love me anymore?"

Peace and Blessings

Changes

I'm not suposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands
(how I feel) I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb
I try to hold this Under control They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm feeling weak and weary walking through this world alone
Everything you say, every word of it, cuts me to the bone
I've got something to say, but now I've got no where to turn
It feel like I've been buried underneath all the weight of the world
I try to hold this Under control They can't help me 'Cause no one knows
Now I'm going through changes, changes God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me Now I'm going through changes, changes
I'm blind and shakin'Bound and breaking
I hope I make it through all these changes
Now I'm going through changes, changes God, I feel so frustrated lately
When I get suffocated, save me
Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it Now I'm going through changes, changes
God, I feel so frustrated lately When I get suffocated,
I hate this But I'm going through changes, changes

Exasperated. Yeah thats right, Aaron.

It takes so much out of me just to be me. My job is awesome but I constantly worry about work. All of the time. If you hadn't noticed I just can't leave work at work at all. And then I have all of these people who want so much from me. So much that I just can't give right now. I've spent the last 5 years of my life constantly worried about another person, is it really so much to ask to want to focus on me for a little while?
This being alone thing is so new to me. It really is. I just don't know how to deal with it and its really taking a lot out of me. I've been seeing someone since right afer boys stopped being gross and now i'm alone for the very first time. Its a scary world to face alone. Its a good thing that I'm doing it because it really is something that everyone should experience, but how much can i take before i crumple and have no one to lean on. its all so very confusing to me. I just wish I knew what I wanted so i could please people and start being me again. I haven't felt like myself in months. I just wish i could get away from everything for awhile. go do something fun and exciting. I'm just feeling so much pressure from everyone. I feel like i'm letting people down and disappointing everyone. I miss the happy hyper Rhonda too but she's scared to come out and get hurt again I think ... *sigh*

*sings*

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life
Trying to make ends meet, you're a slave to the money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah
No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change, but I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold But I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mold, no, no, no, no, no
Well, I've never prayed, But tonight I'm on my knees, yeahI
need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah I let the melody shine,
let it cleanse my mind , I feel free now But the airwaves are clean
and there's nobody singing to me now
No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,
but I'm here in my mold , I am here with my mold

Just a quote..

..a friend of mine had on their AOL away message. Thought I'd post it.

Just when you think you have life all figured out, something or someone comes along and turns it upside down. you cant ignore it, even if its just this feeling. if u try to it will eat away at everything you hold dear to you. you have to face it head on, dont run from it. embrace feelings that scare you and never forget your prolly not the only one who is scared....

Blast from the past.

So here I was reading through some of my old stuff on blue Kaffee and I find a post I made back in february on a serisou discussion topis on "are you truly happy".. this is what I had to say

oddly enough i am perfectly happy. For the first time , in a long time, i feel like i am in control of my own destiny. I am thinking and acting solely for myself, I know that sounds selfish , but for me its a rare occurance. I find myself constantly smiling about nothing and have discovered a new confidence i didn't even know i had. I have the most wonderful boyfriend i could ever ask for who loves me and makes sure everyday he tells me just how amazing he thinks i am and how beautiful I am. I have the most wonderful friends a girl could ask for.. who see my faults and accept them and love me anyway. My family are absolutely amazing as of late and are being really supportive of the decisions i have made over the past few months. Yep life is incredible :)

So its amazing how things change so fast huh? not that i'm not really happy, just that i'm not near as happy as i was nor could be.

So I had a pretty crappy week. I got next to no work donw this week due to some unfortunate events that happened during the week that placed me under a pile of paper work. On the whole though work has been going good, been questioning my leadership capablities though. I hope i'm doing a good job .. :(.

I saw willy wonka last night. I have to say I really liked it. It was excellent. I went with jason :) it was good times. I'm going out to supper with the girls tonight. that should be great. Love my girls. I can always rely on them to make me happy :) Anyway i'm out

Peace and Blessings

THIS is a song I wrote myself

The letter from you to me

Dear Past love
I’m just writing to say
Its time for you to get over me
I never really loved you anyway
However
I didn’t mean to cause you pain
I didn’t mean for it to hurt
It was all a joke
I didn’t think it would bother you
To feel your heart so broke

Because you won’t tell me
I’m writing a letter from you
I need to know now baby
If anything you said was true
I told you there wasn’t
Much more pain I could take
Did you think it wouldn’t hurt
When you made my heart break?

I know I said I loved you
It was just for fun
How else could I convince you
That you might have been the one?
I told you that your beauty
Could never even compare
Ok so I made that up
I barely even noticed you there

Because you won’t tell me
I’m writing a letter from you
I need to know now baby
If anything you said was true
I told you there wasn’t
Much more pain I could take
Did you think it wouldn’t hurt
When you made my heart break?

So I’m sorry I felt nothing
And made you feel it all
It was my plan all long
To make you trip and fall
You’re a nice girl
You’re funny you make me laugh
But that’s too bad
Regards, The Lover From The Past

Because you won’t tell me
I’m writing a letter from you
I need to know now baby
If anything you said was true
I told you there wasn’t
Much more pain I could take
Did you think it wouldn’t hurt
When you made my heart break?

Did you think it wouldn’t hurt
When you made my Heart break?

And the beat goes on..

"Missing Me"

I love the way it feels when you touch my hand

Don't wanna let you go

I love the way you say that I am the one

Don't understand why we can't go on and go on

Don't understand why

You don't belong in my arms

Ohh

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight

Would you come back to me

And even if I walked on the water

Would you come out to sea

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

It's funny how my heart just won't let it go

I just don't understand

It's crazy how the pain seems to overflow

The memories of you here with me by my side

I can't deny that you are the love of my life

OhhAnd even if I cried a thousand tears tonight

Would you come back to me

And even if I walked on the water

Would you come out to sea

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

And I still cry for you

And I would die for you

I can't believe all the words I heard you say

And I still long for you

And I was strong for you

I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

I still cry for youI would die for you

I can't believe all the words I heard you say

I still long for youI was strong for you

I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

And even if I cried a thousand tears tonight

Would you come back to me

And even if I walked on the water

Would you come out to sea

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

I still cry for you

I would die for you

I can't believe all the words I heard you say

I still long for youI was strong for you

I can't believe that you'd throw it all away

Now I can't spend my life standing by

Cause even when I miss you

You're still not missing me

*le sigh* someone comment to cheer me up

My week with Connor

So Connor went home yesterday :( I'm going to miss him soo much. I love that kid. He came to work with me on friday and he had soo much fun. Sitting by me on the bus he told all about what he was gonna do with me next time i went to Boston.. take me to the zoo, back to the aquarium to see the SHARKS, to six flags and of course he said shopping for shoes. We went out for chinese food on friday night too. We had an amazing time. Then yesterday morning he called me. He told me he was going to miss me and i told hm i would miss him more. then we started to argue which ended up with him threatening to come over and squat me. He asked me if I could mail myself to Boston :( I promised him though i;d be down by the time he was 8 ( that makes me 21 ;) ) Anyway I'm getting yelled at to go get a shower now so i'll update about the rest of my week later.