Happy (belated) Birthday to me!

So its Monday morning. I had the most amazing weekend ever. Ever! Best birthday i could possibly imagine. actually, no, I don't think i could have imagined a birthday that great.

I stayed up on thusday night so I wouldn't miss my birthday and got like 12 messages from people at exactly midnight wishing me happy birthday along with a chat on the phone with darcy and and a song from Kayla.

Woke up on friday morning and had breakfast with my daddy then went to school where at 12:00 Darcy surprised me when i was supposed to go to work. He told Zoiey to tell me i had to go to work so he could give me my present there. I got a pink unicorn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The one i was in love with from bears and cheers that i used to visit at the mall!! and he had it in a disney princess bag with a disney princess balloon! it was awesome i was soo excited! then we headed down to the breezeway and started drinking with Kayla, Murrdogg, Matt, Aaron, Beet, Chris M and Brian! I had two beer there and had a great laugh.. beer flavoured! haha so then we all decided we were going to go to Jungle Jims for lunch wheer I had another drink ( i was pretty tipsy before 3 o'clock pretty sad hehe) then we brough those crazy folks back to the Goulds and me and Darcy went to his place for a bit. Thats not for blog so we'll skip that part ;) Then we went to my house and had birthday cake with my parents and my sister gave me a pair of boots that light up!! they're awesome!

Around 8 o'clock people started to arrive for the prime at my house. My girls showed up and gave me awesome presents. Kayla gave me the most comfy Pj's ever. Murrdogg gave me a really pretty bangle that i have yet to take off lol Ash gave me an awesome shirt with a half zip up hoodie to go over it. and Darcy gave me the "what happens on george st stays on george st" tee shirt that i was in love with! Then the drinking began and everything gets a lil sketchy.. heres a point form of what i remember

• Help Me Rhonda
• Grabbing everyones boobs and getting pictures of it
• Dancing with kayla to the NKOTB birthday song and Darcy cutting in
• "Did you have sex with my friend?"
• Vaguely the van ride
• Losing Darcy
• Tequila friend!
• Rhonda:"excuse me Mr. Hot dog Man, I would like a hot dog please"

Hot Dog Man: Regular Jumbo or saussage

Kayla: Regular! Jesus she's a vegetarian!!

• Subway lady and my birthday
• 3 phone calls to Darcy, same conversation

On another note about the subway.. i put on my jacket this morning and found part of my sub wrapped up in one pocket and a cookie in the other. Kind of gross. haha Nice. anyway in short I had the most awesome birthday ever. I love my friends and I love my boyfriend! Awesome Awesome Awesome weekend!! <3

COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!!

My most awesome boyfriend/ 4 sleeps!

Me and Boyfriend
He's being Cute
I'm being.. me. :P



4 more sleeps until I leave my teen years behind me. Wow. I never thought of it that way. Damn. Way to start of this entry on a high note Rhonda. Anyway as the plan stands right now we'll be priming at my house, hopefully, then heading downtown, unless someone has a better idea on where to prime. We'll also be heading to the breezeway at 12:00 on friday for le beer pour ma fete. All are welcome to join me, as Im super cool . I dunno I have a feeling this birthday isn't going to be as great as last year. Rather anti climatic, I hope i'm wrong.

Anyway as for the real reason why I wrote this entry I wanted to brag about how awesome my boyfriend is. He did the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me tonight. The story actually starts a little before hand when I came home from school in a horrible mood due to my horrible day. Anyhoo so i come home and decide I'm gonna call Darcy to see if he can cheer me up, which he does because he's awesome. And he lets me go so I can go to work. Half way through worl Darcy walks into my drama class gives me a rose and a chocolate bar kisses me and leaves. And i have to chase him up the stairs when i finally comprehend what just happend and he tells me he couldn't have my birthday week start off bad and he had to cheer me up! is that not thesweetest thing you've ever heard? <3 align="center">

Anyway As for the rest of my weekend in reveiw..

- Friday I spent the day with Darcy. He took me to the doctor and we went to walmart

we watched Batman. Not a bad movie.

- Saturday was leader forum

- I planted trees... IN THE DIRT (stay tuned for pics)

- Went to fog City for supper

- Seen a movie that was just a headache on screen (Stay)

- Tims with Girls+Aaron Last nigth

Anyhoo thats all for now

Peace and Blessings!

9 Days to my Birthday! ( Just in case you forgot)

Today is wednesday.. did I ever mention how much I hate wednesdays? I thought so.

Today was a comme ci comme ca day. I killed all the tests I got back. I kicked schools butt for sure. I'm not really sure how it is I'm pulling off the marks I've gotten this semester, as I've done less work this semester than any other. However I hope I keep this up. Three tests back today, yep, hot stuff.

I went to see Dr. Batten today. Surgery again. You know what that means right!? TWO DAYS OFF!!! WOOOOO!! *happy dance* however the fact that I can't hear and am in pain, sucks moose testicle.

Going to see Dr. Wang on friday too. Love that woman she's so cute. she's gotta get over her obession with setting me up with her son though. I have a superdupertremendoussplendiferous boyfriend who GOT BILL GREGORY'S AUTOGRAPH for me *heart* :-)

In other news... I don't really have any. haha Laters!

Peace and Blessings!

Sitting here in the UC

Kinda bored. Everyone left me so I'm just chilling out here alone. I have to work today from 10-2. Kinda sucks seeing as how I don't have class today and I was out super late last night. I'm really tired and I have the first rehersal for the Full Monty tonight. I sure would like ot have a nap. I slept the whole way here ( Raylene drove). I have to get the bus home today too. That really sucks. I got the bus home yesterday. I'm not so impressed with that. Hopefully there will be someone on the quarantine bus with me.

So in the News.. hmm .. what has happened since my last entry.. I don't even remember. ohh. Tuesday Darcy took me to DQ. I Sure do love DQ. It made me really happy. and Last night we went to cape spear until after 12. tis the reason I'm so super tired. I'm sure this will be one heck of a productive day today at work. Ugh. anyone wanna set up a booth at the volunteer fair? lol there .. see I work!

So the plans for this weekend are as follows.. Tomorrow night Masterless Men.. Saturday night.. ugghh... ummm.. nothing. Sunday.. nothing. Yep. Exciting weekend coming up indeed.

anyhoo I really have nothing too interesting to write. So..

Peace and Blessings!

This week

So its been an eventful week. Last two shows of the birdcage, Thank God thats over. Loved it but i was sick of it. readyto move onto something new and exciting. so after Friday nights show we all headed to Janets for a lovely social gathering.. and by social gathering i mean drinkfest. I had an awesome time there. Darcy and I aimed to corupt the minds of the younger generation, it was awesome. Left Janets around 2 and went for a drive with Darcy :) where he asked me to be his girlfriend :) of course I said yes. He's awesome! we have so much in common and I feel like i could talk to him for hours about everything and anything. he's so interesting.

So on saturday afternoon I got to see Beauty and the Beast. So i maintained my excitment in the theatre.. however inside i was screaming a jumping up and down and going insane. i mean it was Beauty and the Beast! ahh. Belle's pretty yellow dress looked exactly like the one from the disney movie.. i want it. and the music was just fabulous. Gaston couldn't carry a note in a bucket but the rest of the cast were awesome. *sigh* i sure do love Beauty and the Beast.

Today i went shopping for something for murrdogg then we ( Murr, Kayla, Ashleigh, myself steven and Darcy) went out to jungle jims for supper. it was awesome. went to Adam boyles house after for a bit then i went to Darcy's and hung out for a bit before coming home.

So, so far this has been an awesome midterm break. two days left and I'm sure they'll be just as great. Its so awesome to feel wanted again and be happy with where I am :)

This week

So its been an eventful week. Last two shows of the birdcage, Thank God thats over. Loved it but i was sick of it. readyto move onto something new and exciting. so after Friday nights show we all headed to Janets for a lovely social gathering.. and by social gathering i mean drinkfest. I had an awesome time there. Darcy and I aimed to corupt the minds of the younger generation, it was awesome. Left Janets around 2 and went for a drive with Darcy :) where he asked me to be his girlfriend :) of course I said yes. He's awesome! we have so much in common and I feel like i could talk to him for hours about everything and anything. he's so interesting.

So on saturday afternoon I got to see Beauty and the Beast. So i maintained my excitment in the theatre.. however inside i was screaming a jumping up and down and going insane. i mean it was Beauty and the Beast! ahh. Belle's pretty yellow dress looked exactly like the one from the disney movie.. i want it. and the music was just fabulous. Gaston couldn't carry a note in a bucket but the rest of the cast were awesome. *sigh* i sure do love Beauty and the Beast.

Today i went shopping for something for murrdogg then we ( Murr, Kayla, Ashleigh, myself steven and Darcy) went out to jungle jims for supper. it was awesome. went to Adam boyles house after for a bit then i went to Darcy's and hung out for a bit before coming home.

So, so far this has been an awesome midterm break. two days left and I'm sure they'll be just as great. Its so awesome to feel wanted again and be happy with where I am :)

In avoidence of study..

I decided I should update my much neglected blog. Things have been going amazingly well with me. School has been super crazy, i've had 4 midterms in the past week. Been studying hard, keeping up with it though, its lucky thing I'm a smart girl. I've been working a bit too. Really liking my job at the SVB despite the fact I've only worked 2 shifts so far. Seems to be fun and i love the type of work i'm doing there so I think its going to be an awesome semester with an awesome group of people

So major event of the week: Kaylas Party. I wish I could tell you more of what happened there but honestly I was much to drunk to remember most of it. I know i had a great time though, i took my camera and got over 90 pictures so I have a good idea of how my night went. Darcy came with me and he got to meet all my friends, which is excellent. I think they really like him. I know my parents sure did. They haven't stopped asking about him since. I'm really glad as I was pretty worried about what they'd think. SO i may have stretched the truth about him just a lil bit.. is that such a bad thing if my happiness is at stake? ;)

In other news I discovered today that the Birdcage has sold out BOTH of its encore nights at the LSPU two days before the show! Thats amazing! I am soo proud of Deadpan Alley and all that it has acomplished this year. I am soo glad I'm a part of such a great group of people. Especially when these people will have a Deanpan Chant in the middle of Kaylas living room when Don O'Keefe shows up.. ahh fun times.

Anyway this has been my break from the depressing book "the killing of Bonnie Garland" and now I must get back to explaining why such a sick psychopathic killer got away with Manslaughter for bashing his sleeping girlfriends head in with a claw hammer. Have a wonderful day all .. *muuuah*

Peace and Blessings

Edit: So appearantly our shows are not COMPLETELY sold out but pretty close so you guys should get your tickets now! Don't miss out!!

Article from the MUSE

The Birdcage returns after sellout shows
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The Birdcage
Starring Chris Downey, Chris Mercer, and Jeremy Viera
Deadpan Alley
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It's a testament to the quality of local theatre when hopeful patrons are turned down at the door. A St. John's socialite couple were sent away from the LSPU Hall after waiting in line for tickets to Deadpan Alley's latest - a roaring, sensational production of The Birdcage, directed by Janet K. Graham. I couldn't blame the couple for arriving 15 minutes before the curtain lifted: Who knew a show with more drag than the Clarenville Strip could sell out - twice?

A revision of the hilarious 1996 movie starring Robin Williams and Nathan Lane (itself a remake of the French film and play La Cage Aux Folles), The Birdcage is a raucous tale of gay couple Armand (Chris Downey) and Albert (Chris Mercer) - one a club owner, the other it's sensational star. Throughout the play, they go to great lengths to help their straight son Val marry the girl of his dreams, Barbara, whose father is the candy-loving, God-fearing Senator Keeley (a man so conservative he probably wears everything to the right).

Spilt into two chapters, the play explodes in a series of hilarious set pieces detailing every step of Albert's and Armand's charade to convince the senator and his wife that Val is worthy of marriage by pulling the ultimate con - going straight. Cue the hijinx as Armand and Albert stumble towards a resolution that will have you laughing, even if you've seen the movie before.

If a good play rests on the strength of its actors, The Birdcage deserves to be sold out repeatedly. Comic timing, sudden pratfalls, and coy self-reference are just the beginning here; special mention goes to the actors playing the over-the-top but lovable Albert and the faithful manservant Agador (Jeremy Viera).Mercer's Albert is the catalyst for most of the play's humour, as he hams up the effeminate starlet to great effect. Swooning along to every new plot twist, Albert is more drama than drag queen, but the audience wouldn't want it any other way. As the bouncy butler of the couple, Viera comes dangerously close to stealing the show from the talented cast.

The end left me with only one complaint: It was over too quickly. The charaters had endeared themselves into the audience's hearts, and it was a disappointment to see a close to the fancy song numbers and the creatively fab costumes. This was a shared feeling, as Deadpan Alley are now putting off two additional shows in response to the fantastic ticket sales. If you missed the show the first time, here's your chance to catch it again.Deadpan Alley's production of The Birdcage at the LSPU Hall returns Oct. 6 and 7. Showtime is 8:00 p.m. Tickets are $12 at the door, and are also available in advance at the LSPU box office.

Amazing weekend.

So I had.. well as the title says.. an Amazing weekend. Wonder why? You should know! .. hmm so this is what it feels like to be happy again.. *smile*.. *looks around*.. *huge smile*

That is all...






*big smile*

This week in the life of Ru..

So who remembers Zoiey Cobb? Turns out I'm going to be working with her! I got offered, and accepted, the MUCEP position as Program Assistant at the SVB ( Student Volunteer Bureau) yesterday and I must say I'm pretty damn excited about it. This is an amazing oppertunity for me and I'm really excited to get started, meet new people and be excited about work again. I love working.

In other news, the held over show went amazingly well and Janet decided that we will come back in two or three weeks time and do another multi-night run of either 2 or 3 nights. This is sooo amazing. I love Deadpan! hehe

So other than the new job, deadpan on its way to broadway.. or Gander (haha) and my amazing sleep deprivation there isn't really much more for me to say. My life since school started has been Class, Deadpan, sleep, and really not too much of the latter. Been getting to hang out with my friends at school a lil bit but other than that I haven't seen most people in ages. I'm begining to forget what Ashleigh looks like and that makes me sad :( . But all is good, Huge party next weekend. I shant know my name by the end of the night, it will be fun times. 98 3/4 percent guaranteed!

Peace and Blessings!

I cannot express in words..

..how proud I am of Deadpan Alley right now. This weekend has been amazing for all of us. Friday nights show was amazing. We did awesome. However none of us expected what happened last night. Not only are we the first new group to sell out, we're the first group ever to sell out before the box office even opened! It may not sound like a big deal to everyone else but to us at Deadpan .. ITS HUGE!! And the show was an amazing success. I mean the reveiws aren't out yet, but even if they aren't great, who cares?! its one persons opinion on paper, The audience last night LOVED the show. Everybody had nothing but good things to say to us :)
Kayla, Murrdogg and Darcy got to go! as well as my sister and my dad. My daddy was so proud of me! And yes.. I am a daddy's girl.
After the show last night we went to Tim Hortons and Darcy came along. That made me really happy. He's my favorite. I've never met someone who makes me laugh so hard!
So what am I doing tonight you ask.,? why OUR SHOW GOT HELD OVER! We're doing another show tonight with the possibility of another three night run in three weeks time! This is soo amazing! I could have never asked to be involved with a greater group of people for this. people who deserve it soo soo much! So .. EVERYONE GO TO THE SHOW TONIGHT 8PM CURTAIN AT THE LSPU HALL!!!!!!!!

PEACE AND BLESSINGS!

New title!

So I've decided to Change the title of my blog to something a little more fitting than what it had been. Although I liked the title "Some Kind of Miracle" It just hadn't been right. So now I'm titled "Story About a Girl" as this blog as somewhat become the Story of me, who just happens to have a vagina. Imagine the possibilites ;)

Anyway, so I had a pretty boring weekend. Was at the Breezeway on friday with Janine and two new friends of ours, Chris and Dennis. It was really fun. However it was really loud there and I'm sad to say I missed most of the nights conversation. Its getting really frustrating to me how bad my hearing has gotten just over the past year. I think its time I stop cheating on my hearing tests and owning up to the fact that I need help.

Saturday.. hmm what did I do saturday.. RIGHT! I went to see the Exorcism of Emily Rose with Darcy. It was a good movie but nothing at all like what I had expected. Well at least I didn't cry! Then I finally got to get DQ after a week of waiting for it I got my DQ! It was awesome! I ate like half ofa sundae! I'm an animal! Then saturday night I was forced into going to my aunts birthday party / going away party for my cousin. Ive decided I either need to start going to family functions or stop all together. Two of my first cousins tried to pick me up, not recognizing who I was. Then I had half of the family tell me how fat I was, the other half telling me i was too skinny and all of them picking on me for being single, and asking where stefan was. WE BROKE UP OVER A YEAR AGO!!!! GET OVER IT!! *hehe*

Yesterday did a lil family trip out to town and then worked Bingo last night. Nothing overly exciting. So all in all it was a pretty boring weekend. Hopefully this weekend coming will be much more exciting What with The Birdcage that everyone is going to attend either friday night at the parish hall at 8:00 for $8 admission or Monday night at the LSPU hall for $12 admission It should be fun times :) Anyway I'm off to nap or something before I have to reherse or something again.

Peace and Blessings

Back to school - Back to life.

So here I am. Laying on my bed. Yesterday was my first day back to MUN. I love MUN. I really do. There are so many nice people to meet out there. I spent all of Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday at orientation. Let me tell you being an orientation leader is MUCH more fun than being a first year. Holy poo.

Sunday was training. Me and Janine headed out there around 9ish. realized we knew next to nobody. That was fine we had eachother. We quickly learned that we had to dance. Thats right. I had to dance. The OV (orientation Volunteer) Boogie. Needless to say I was a lil scary. So we all lined up so that we spelled out MUN. And in this formation we met the man who became known as M, as we met him in the M. he was a really nice guy so he became our friend. Then M introduced us to Chris. Chris was a cool fellow indeed. So we finish training go home fine and dandy.
Monday I got to know a guy named Darcy. He was one of the POA's and reminded me a lot of my friend terry ( I know you don't like that but too bad he did! its not a bad thing) so we hung out most of Monday night at the breezeway. On Monday I also got the pleasure of getting to dance the OV boogie on the News. Right in front of the camera the whole time. dancing right next to the dean. I had to catch her when she fell. It was awesome. I also danced ballroom style in front of 2000 people. Just me and Sammy Seahawk. Its a really good thing i'm not shy. Haha

Tuesday was more fun times. Campus tour. Luncheon and again some more OV boogie. Got some people to sign my shirt. haha I never thought I could find someone with a dirtier mind than myself, Then I found Darcy. He's my hero lol and said goodbye to the first years

Yesterday was my first day of class. I had English 2390 first. My prof is frigging crazy. she seems like a bit of a bitch to me. My English 2000 prof was Michael Nolan. I had him for 1101 and I really liked him. So I was Pleased. My 2002 prof seems a lil off the wall but I think the course should be a breeze. Religous institutions I'm not so sure about. The prof seems nice enough but I hink its gonna be a lil boring. War And Aggression I had last night. the Prof is nuts. but in a good way. He is the world leader in his feild and had no issues with bragging that to us. He studies murders and serial killers for a living, you have to expect him to be a lil crazy. I only had one class with people I knew in it. Kim and Tabitha are in 2002 with me so it should be fun times.

I don't have classes on tuesday or thursday so thats pretty awesome. I have rehersal tonight at 6 and i'm pretty sure every night next week . We have reporters coming in to the rehersals from the Telegram. the Muse. Coast 101.1 and CBC. Looks like this producion is going to be a hit.. and I FINALLY GOT TO REHERSE! woo! Anyway I'm out to rest up a bit before I have to go!



Peace and Blessings!

The week to end all weeks.

It has been an absolutely amazing week. It started last saturday night right up to this friday night. An amazing way to end an amazing summer.

So last saturday night I went to Haydens BBQ with kayla and Tony. it was fun times. I was really drunk. Highlights include Nicole ( my boss) seeing my stumble down the road and getting stuck in Haydens bathroom and getting rescued by his mom. We stayed at Haydens for a lil bit then we went to kaylas then me and Tony Hung out at the park for a lil while. It was fun times indeed.

Sunday night was a girls night turned night out with Tony as well. Me and the girls went to Tims then back to Kaylas where Tony joined us. Ashleigh and I completely defaced a newspaper and then we left. Tony and I walked Ashleigh home then went for a lil stroll around the Goulds. We went to the old softball feild behind the town hall however he was too scared to stay so we had to leave, however, upon leaving we ran into Hayden and Ches, and while talking to them heather drove up fresh off the plane from New jersey. It was a very random place to meet such people, especially since it was 1:30 in the morning.

Monday I know I finished my last day at work. Cleaned out my office and the like. Then I went and picked up a few things I needed for school and hun g out with Tony for a bit before He had to go to work. I'm not exactly sure what happened that night.. hmm. However I know I was out really late because....

Tuesday morning I had to get up early to go do testing with Val for some research she's doing for some Psychology board. They're trying to develop and accurate test of non verbal intelligence. So basically what that entailed was I say down for an hour with Val and got to play with puzzles and got paid 20$ for doing so. It was awesome. After that I went out to school to pay my tuition and scope out the new classes and the like. Ate some pizza. looked around the book store. That was fun too. Tuesday was also a rehersal night so I went there and came home and got some much needed sleep.

Wednesday/Thursday were most definatly the highlights of the week though. Wednesday the girls all packed into kaylas Van and headed to portigal cove south. Now we made a pact, what happens in Portugal cove south, stays in portugal cove south. however I can't leave you wanting more like that. I'll give yousmall tidbits such as. Terry is actually spelled Turrie, Andrew's name is not anthony and he does not have a twin brother and neaked sexy shore boys are very persistant. Right Murr? haha Most definatley hands down the best night of the entire summer. I drank and entire flask of vodka and woke up feeling fine. :) Thursday I also got to drive Kaylas Van in trepassey, which was awesomely funy because i didn't know how to change gears in it and I was MUCH to short to drive it. haha.

Friday night (last night) Kayla, Murr, Aaron and Courtney (Beet) all went downtown. We primed here at my house and Kaylas mom drove us down around 12. Eddie O'keefe met us down there (haha He told me i was really sexy and he could stare into my eyes all night. I wonder if he has any wine to go with that cheese) . We ran into a lot of random people. I ran into my husband and gave him hugs, I seen my friend Kurtis who I hadn't seen in forever. Discovered that Murr is friends with Some random guy I have on my msn list so I got to meet him in person. It wasn't the greatest night downtown but it was pretty awesome all the same! I mean I got to go downtown with Aaron Critch! woo haha

And thus ends my most awesome week. It was the perfect way to end such a roller coaster of a summer. now COMMENT! haha

Summer Review

Its been a very interesting summer to say the least. Not exciting per say, but very eye opening in the sense that I survived. My fist summer totally and completely alone.. and I lived. I'm not saying it was easy. It was a huge adjustment for me. This summer was just overall completely different from anything I've ever had to do. Its just that everything changed. Everything was just slightly different enough to throw me off course there for awhile. I got a promotion, which was amazing but also a lot of hard work. People really misunderstood my roll that I had there and it made communication difficult so it seems. However, as far as my job goes I was very please with how my summer went. Hightlights from work include:
- The treasure hunt (haha come on guys it wasn't that bad)
- Day Camp Idol
- Green Koolaid
- Kangaroo Kourt
- Hunting the mess fairy
- Solving the case of the misaimed pee
- Johnny hehe
- Wasting lots of time at salmoneir nature park
- Janie's party
- Dickie being such a good sport ( I love you kiddo)
- Cleaning poop haha
- Tent city and the sighting of the sasquatch
- Not being PJ! haha sorry buddy!

And those are just some of them. I really do honestly and truthfully love my job :)

So on the non-work related end of the summer things were a lil different. Yeah I admit it. I was unhappy. My only saviours were really my girls and rehersing for The Birdcage *coughplugcough*. Sunday nights were always amazing. There is nothing I would not do for my girls. You are honestly the best thing I have in my life, and sometimes my only reason I feel at the time to get up in the morning. You make life worth it. I know I've said it a hundred times, but it was so hard for me to come home and not hear someone say "I've missed you, did you have a nice day" and kiss me. Being loved is something I really miss. And i will never deny that. But I realized tonight when thinking about writing this blog that I'm going to be 20 in two months (from yesterday btw hehe) I need to stop my whining and bitching. Yes ok, I can't have who I want. That isn't the end of the world. I'm distracting myself so much with what I can't have that I'm probably missing a whole bunch of great things that I could have. And it really breaks my heart to admit I'm really ready to move on now. I feel guilty about it. I do. But this summer has made me realize that I'm worth it. And it was his loss (yes I know you're reading this and I am sober this time) So yes it kills me, and yes it still hurts every single day. But I don't need that. I'm missing too much. I'm going to move on. Slowly. I really don't want to rush anything. But 20 is when people start to calm down. Start seriously becoming who you are going to be for the rest of your life. I don't need that extra stress in my life. I don't need the uncertainty of it all. I don't need second guessing. I need stability. I'm not going to run from anything that scares me anymore. Thats what cowards do. Jimmy told me a long time ago to seize life with both hands, and picture myself as a cup and love as water. If you just pour the water around you're left with an empty cup. You have to fill the cup and let it over flow first. And it took me 4 years to get what he meant for real. But Jimmy this summer put into action what you tried to teach me on the rooftop that night. It takes a small person to make someone feel small. No matter what they do. So I survived my summer alone. And its time for me to get my life back in order. Back to school. Back to life. Back to everything thats normal. I'm already gone.

Peace and Blessings!

So here I am. Its 11:09 and I've just settled myself on my bed after getting home from my *LONG* Day of work (7am-10pm). Today was the final day of our summer programs, the much anticipated Bidgoods Summer Blast. Basically in a nutshell the day is 300 children, 40 Staff, 5 Buses, 4 Venues, and 1 responsibility, on me. It actually went REALLY well and i'm so freaking impressed with myself, honestly. I had soo many people commend me on how well it was organized and how smoothly it ran. I didn't get not one complaint from anyone that really mattered. For those of you who don't really know what the Summer Blast is, we take 300 kids and take them to a movie at studio 12, swimming at the aquarena have a bbq and then have a dance. Its absolute madness. It was my first year actually organizing the event, but the 4th year I've done it.

Overall my summer was excellent. I thought it was a really awesome experience for me at such a young age ( in ocmparison to all past co ordinators) to have such a great oppertunity at this job. I'm only 19 years old and I was given a pretty big responsibilty. I'm really glad that the board, despite their hesitation in giving me this job, chose me. I know now i can trust myself to make good decisions, that I am responsible, i can organize and I am a good leader. and despite the fact that i barely had time to breathe in the last three months working in this position this year has actually made me that much more mature, and that much more capable of dealing with great work related stress, deadlines and presentation. It may sound dorky, but this summer has really changed me. I really do believe in my abilities, especially after today.


I never would have done so well without my awesome staff ( see picture above) though. so in no particular order THANK YOU : Joanne, Jill, Sam, Jess, Kim, Raylene, Janie, Chris, Dickie, Michael, Hammond, Kerri, Ryan, Jeff, Stephen, Aaron and Josh!! You guys are absolutely amazing. So helpful and so ready to take on the world all of the time. Also Big thanks to Brenda,
Randy and Nicole. We make a great team. Hope we get to do it again next year!

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Yep.. I was right. Kicking myself for that one. Continue on about your buisness like it never happened. La La La I attribute the former post to this...

Charlie Lacosta.

I've been thinking a lot about Charlie lately, I'm not really sure why. Anytime I go anywhere I find myself secretly hoping I run into him. Just wanting to run up to him and say " OH My God! Chuck!". I wonder if he even remembers me..? I don't think there is a day that goes by that I don't think about him.

For those of you who don't know Charlie used to be one of my very best friends back in grade 9. I really truly believed the sun shone out of his rear, and i probably would have jumped over the moon for him if i thought it would make him happy. we spent an entire summer together. Every day, he'd ride his bike in from Prescott street just to see me. I think maybe if there is such a thing as a friendship soulmate, he would be mine.

Its been three years since I've seen him , three years! thats a really long time. And I miss him soo terribly. I shared so much with him and I told him absolutely everything, and because he screwed up his life, I lost him, against my will we slowly stopped talking, phone calls went from once a day, to once a week , once a month, once every 6 months and now , not call in a year, and with the path he was headed down, I really don't know if he's alive or dead. I know people have seen him , and those people weren't me. Its sad to see someone throw away their life like that. He was a smart boy with such great potential. he was and i know still is a beautiful person, inside and out. Charlie knew the real me, and i really think i knew the real Charlie. I bared my soul to him and he to me. and now we have nothing, he probably wouldn't even know me if he seen me. Its hard to go from such close friends to strangers, especially under the circumsatnces that we did, and its in times like the ones i've been having lately that I miss him the most. When i kno he would make me feel better and safe a secure again... Charlie if you're out there.. I need you..


Peace and Blessings

I told you so...

So true to my word I'm trying hard to write more often. I had a pretty shitty weekend overall. Went to the family reunion on saturday. It was an ok time. I got pretty drunk bt ended up home in bed by 11 yet again. Most of my cousins have small children so we drank early and finished early as welll. My mom owned the horse shoe tournament as per usual. Kinda missed having stefan there though. Not the same without him, but we all know that was for the best. Sunday again I sat home most of the day and went to a movie with Jason, Kayla and that guy last night. we saw wedding crashers. It was ok. I wasn't overly impressed but it was pretty funny.

So in other news I was reading Aarons BK journal last night and he was talking about al these old memories he had of growing up in the Goulds and it got me to thinking about some of the ones that I have. Remember all of those summer nights we spent on the sidewalk on Boland St? Watching Chubbs and Dennis skateboard. Having those crazy assed run ins with the "grade 8's"
How about selling shells on the side of the road. Me and ash used to do that for hours on end. How about all those nights spent in the park right after me and stefan started dating "stop making babies!" chilling out on the monkey bars just watching starts and being young *sigh* I miss those days, I miss not having to worry about paper work, or GPA's or finals exams and STI's. Life was so freaking simple, back when a month in a relationship was forever and making out meant you got with someone. I really wish we could just all get together for one night of just absolute foolishness. forget about work and school and relationships or lack there of. I'm only 20 and I already miss my youth. I grew up way too fast for my liking. Thats what i get for jumping into things that no 15 year old is ready for I suppose. Not that I would ever change my past, not for a million dollars, its just the curse of what ifs.

I was talking to Stefan last night and he was completely right in saying I haven't been myself in a long time. I really have no idea why i've been acting the way I have been. I don't really have an excuse. I'm just, I have no idea. Its not depressed because i'm still happy. its just I don't know who I am anymore because "me" as the happy person with lots of friends out having a good time feeling good about herself has always included another person, and now for the first time since I found that "me" I don't have another person to share it with. Its strange and unusual and I still haven't found a way to do it properly after 6 months. Its really hard. But like i've said before. I'll do it. I'm strong and now i just have to work on the independant part. I'll be ok. I always am.

Anyhoo I have a meeting to get ready for. People to see events to organize and gosh and golly gee I hope some more paper work to do. Goodnight people. And don't forget to comment. I've been feeling neglected.

Here I am again

The will be my first "real"post in a while. I've been super busy with lots of super cool things to do, what with work and rehersals and all I barely get time for myself anymore. Which explains why I am here in my underroos in bed at 11pm on a friday night. I sometimes just enjoy getting to spend the night by myself and just relaxing. I had another one of those very stressful weeks so its nice to just sit here and not really worry about anything

So exciting news for the week, Well Janie ( the girl from Quebec who was working for me for 6 weeks) finished up at work today, we had a surprise party for her yesterday. I took her out to pick things up with me in the morning for the sleepover next week and while we were gone the kids decorated the gym. I was absolutely amazed at how pretty they made it in only two hors with some construction paper and tape. Its was really pretty. They did it in a hawaiian theme. She seemed really surprised and loved the gifts we gave her. The kids all signed a newfoundland flag and made cards for her and we also bought her a necklace and pendant made from labradorite in the shape of a puffin. It was really pretty. And I made her a dvd slide show of her summer she spent with us with lots of cute and funny pictures of the summer. I think she really enjoyed it.

As well, we went on a boat tour today. and as coordinator i took on the ruling task of taking two different boat tours today and enjoying the beautiful sun and ocean for four and a half hours. Its a tough job but someone has to do it. It was a nice way to end a tough week. next week however will be brutal. our special event s a sleepover and i'm working on reviving the old rec centre tradition of Kangaroo Kourt, which is proving to be a somewhat difficult task. However I am determined to revive said tradition to make the summer more fun like the ones I used to have way back in the day.

On another note I realized today that I'm going to be 20 very very soon. Thats insane. I mean it seems as if i just turned 19, and now here I am staring the barrel of 20. where does time go? Its been a tough year, but as I discovered the other day it actually contained the happiest moment of my lif thus far to date that I can remember. Someone asked me the other day if I could pinpoint the happiest moment of my life that i've lived so far. and I took a really long time to think about it. like hard and serious, and it may shock some people to know what I came up with.. Midnight of new years eve. I really can't remember being so pefectly happy as I was at that moment. I had everything I felt I wanted and needed and I was just so perfectly happy. But like all things real, good things must come to an end and thats over now, Im just very glad I got to enjoy that moment of shear bliss. I know some people aen't so fortunate as to ever experience that feeling that I had, and for that I'm very thankful. I think growing up is supposed to be tough. I think your'e supposed to jump from insanely happy to insanely depressed so easily so you can really experience what "grown up" life is about. because I think lifes moral really could be shit happens , but so does magic. you just have to be prepared. I don't mean to become so philosopical but people this really is what life is all about, its about living. its about gathering experiences, learning and appreciating things for what they are and what they offer. If you can;t take a lesson from a situation be it good or bad I don't think you're really living at all. EVERYTHING happens for a reason, and life is finding that reason.

This has actually become a bit of a long winded entry. But thats ok. I think its best I start wrting here more again. Its been too hard keeping my thoughts bottled up. anyway I'm going to get some beauty sleep, The Bavis Family reunion is tomorrow and I want to look my best. Have a wonderful night everyone. God Bless

Peace and Blessings
Rhonda